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The Making of Mona

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Title: The Making of Mona

Author: Mabel Quiller-Couch

Illustrator: E. Wallcousins


        
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*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE MAKING OF MONA ***

THE MAKING OF MONA.

BY MABEL QUILLER-COUCH.
(Author of 'Troublesome Ursula,' 'A Pair of Red-Polls,' 'Kitty Trenire,'
'The Carroll Girls', Etc., Etc.)

ILLUSTRATED BY E. WALLCOUSINS.

LONDON
SOCIETY FOR PROMOTING CHRISTIAN KNOWLEDGE.
NEW YORK: THE MACMILLAN COMPANY.


[Illustration: Granny stood staring at her broken treasures.]



CHAPTER I.


The kettle sat on the hob, and Mona sat on the floor, both as idle as idle
could be.

"I will just wait till the kettle begins to sing," thought Mona; and
became absorbed in her book again.

After a while the kettle, at any rate, seemed to repent of its laziness,
for it began to hum softly, and then to hum loudly, and then to sing, but
Mona was completely lost in the story she was reading, and had no mind for
repentance or anything else.  She did not hear the kettle's song, nor even
the rattling of its cover when it boiled, though it seemed to be trying in
every way to attract her attention.  It went on trying, too, until at last
it had no power to try any longer, for the fire had died low, and the
kettle grew so chilly it had not even the heart to 'hum,' but sat on the
black, gloomy-looking stove, looking black and gloomy too, and, if kettles
have any power to think, it was probably thinking that poor old granny
Barnes' tea would be scarcely worth drinking when she came home presently,
tired and hungry, from her walk to Milbrook, for Mona, even if she
realised that the water had boiled, would never dream of emptying it away
and filling the kettle afresh, as she should do.

But Mona had no thought for kettles, or tea, or granny either, for her
whole mind, her eyes, her ears, and all her senses were with the heroine
of the fascinating story she was absorbed in; and who could remember fires
and kettles and other commonplace things when one was driving through a
lovely park in a beautiful pony carriage, drawn by cream-coloured ponies,
and seated beside an exquisitely dressed little lady who had more money
than she could count, and insisted on sharing all with her companion?

Mona certainly could not.  She never could manage to remember two things
at the same time; so, as all her thoughts were absorbed by her
golden-haired friend in the blue silk frock, granny in her old black
merino and heavy boots was forgotten as completely as the fire, and it was
not until someone came stumbling up the garden path and a tired voice
said, "Well, dearie, I'm come at last, how have you got on since I've been
gone?" that she remembered anything about either; and when she did she
felt almost sorry that granny had come quite so soon, for if she had only
been a few minutes later Mona might just have finished the chapter.

"Oh, I'm so tired!" groaned granny, dropping wearily into her arm-chair.
"I have been longing for a nice cup of tea for this hour and more."
Then, as her eyes fell on the black grate, her voice changed to one of
dismay.  "Why, Mona!" she cried, "the fire's gone clean out!  Oh, dear!
oh, dear!"  Granny's voice was full of disappointment.  With anyone but
Mona she would have been very cross indeed, but she was rarely cross with
her.  "I daresay it'll catch up again quickly with a few sticks,"
she added patiently.

Mona, really ashamed of herself, ran out to the little wood-rick which
stood always in the back-yard.  "Stupid old fire," she muttered
impatiently, "of course it must go out, just to spite me because I wanted
to have a little read," and she jerked out the sticks with such force that
a whole pile of faggots came tumbling down to the ground.  She did not
stay, though, to pick them up again, for she really was sorry for her
carelessness, and wanted to try and catch up the fire as quickly as
possible.  She had fully meant to have a nice fire, and the tea laid,
and the kettle on the point of boiling, and everything as nice as could be
by the time her grandmother got back from the town.  But one never got any
credit for what one meant to do, thought Mona with a feeling of self-pity.

By the time she got back to the kitchen her grandmother had taken off her
bonnet and shawl and was putting on her apron.  "My feet do ache," she
sighed.  "The roads are so rough, and it's a good step to Milbrook and
back--leastways it seems so when you're past sixty."

Mona felt another pang of shame, for it was she who should have gone to
the town to do the shopping; but she had not wanted to, and had complained
of being tired, and so granny had gone herself, and Mona had let her.

"Let me unlace your boots, granny, and get your slippers for you."
She thought she would feel less guilty if she did something to make her
grandmother more comfortable.  "You sit down in your chair, I'll do all
that's got to be done."

Mrs. Barnes leaned back with a sigh of relief.  "Bless the dear child,"
she thought affectionately, "how she does think for her old granny!"
She had already forgotten that Mona had let the fire go out, and neglected
to make any preparations for her home-coming; and Mona, who could be very
thoughtful and kind if she chose, knelt down and unlaced the heavy boots,
and slipped the warm, comfortable slippers on to the tired old feet,
laughing and chattering cheerfully the while.

"Now you are to sit there, gran, and not to dare to move to do one single
thing.  I'm going to talk to that fire, and you'll see how I'll coax him
up in no time, and if that kettle doesn't sing in five minutes I'll take
the poker to him."  And, whether it was because of her coaxing or not,
the fire soon flamed cheerfully, and the kettle, being already warm, began
to sing almost as soon as Mona had got the cloth spread.

While she waited for it to come to boiling point, she sat down on her
little stool by the fire, and took up her book again.  "Just to have a
little look at the pictures for a minute," she explained.  "Oh, granny, it
is such a lovely story, I must tell you about it."

"Yes, dear, I'd like to--some day."

But Mona did not hear the 'some day.' She was already pouring into
granny's ear all she had read, and granny interjected patiently,
"Yes, dearie," and "Oh my!" and "How nice!" though she was so faint and
weary she could not take in half of Mona's chatter.

Presently the kettle boiled again, but Mona was once more lost to
everything but her story, and it was granny who got up and made the tea.

"It's all ready, dearie," she said, as she sank into her chair once more.
"You must tell me the rest while you are having it.  Oh, there's no butter
out."  She had to get up again and drag her aching feet to the little
larder for the butter, and as soon as she had settled herself again she
had to get up and get a teaspoon.  Mona had forgotten a half of the things
she should have laid, and she had forgotten, too, that granny was tired.

"And oh, granny," she went on breathlessly, "on her birthday Pauline wore
a muslin dress, with blue forget-me-nots worked all over it, and a blue
sash, and--and a hat just covered with forget-me-nots."

"She must have looked like a bed of them," remarked Granny.

"Oh, _I_ think she looked perfectly sweet!  I'd love to have clothes like
she had.  Of course, she didn't have to do _any_ work--nothing at all all
day long."

"Well, I know a little girl who doesn't do much," remarked granny quietly,
but Mona did not hear her.

"Granny, do you think I'll be able to have a new hat this summer?
Mine is ever so shabby--and shall I have forget-me-nots on it?  I'd rather
have forget-me-nots than anything.  I suppose I couldn't have a blue sash
to wear with it, could I, Gran?  I don't think they cost very very much.
Millie Higgins, in at Seacombe, had a plaid one, and she was sure it
didn't cost a great deal, she said.  Her uncle brought it to her,
but Millie never wears it.  She doesn't like plaid; she wishes it was
pink.  I'd wear it if 'twas mine, but I'd rather have a blue one.  Do you
think I can have a new hat, granny?"

"We will see.  If your father is able to send some more money for you I
might be able to manage it; but with your stepmother always ailing his
money seems to be all wanted for doctor's bills and medicines.  It does
seem hard."

Mona's face fell.  "And I don't suppose the medicine does any good, do
you, granny?"

"Some folks believe in it, and I s'pose if you believe in it it does you
good.  For my own part, I never had but two bottles in my life, and I
don't see that I'm any the worse for going without.  In fact, I----"

Mona, who always sat at the side of the table facing the window, sprang to
her feet excitedly.  "Why, it's the postman! and he's coming in here,"
she interrupted, and was at the door to meet him before he had power to
knock.  She came back more slowly, carefully studying the one letter she
held.  "It's from father," she said eagerly, as she at last handed it to
her grandmother.  "Oh, granny!  I wonder if he has sent any money?"

Granny was evidently surprised.  "A letter from your father!  Whatever can
he be writing about?  I haven't written to him since I had his last.
I hope he isn't having more trouble."

"Perhaps he has written to know why you haven't," said Mona shrewdly.

"Oh, granny, do make haste and open the letter, I am longing to know
what's inside!"

But letters did not come every day to Hillside Cottage, so when they did
they must be made the most of.  Mrs. Barnes examined the envelope back and
front; the handwriting, the stamp, the postmark; then she had to go to a
drawer to get a skewer with which to slit the envelope, then her
spectacles had to be found, polished, and put on, and at long last she
took out the letter and began to read.

Mona chafed with impatience as she watched her.  Her eyes looked ready to
pop out of her head with eagerness.  "Why don't you let me read it to
you?" she cried at last, irritably, and regretted her words as soon as
they were spoken.  Granny laid the letter on the table beside her and
fixed her eyes on Mona instead.  "I am not got past reading my own letters
yet," she said sternly, looking out over the tops of her spectacles at
her.  Mona was dreadfully afraid they would fall off, and then the
polishing and fixing process would all have to be gone through again,
but she had the wisdom to hold her tongue this time, and granny took up
the letter again, and at last began to read it, while Mona tried hard to
read granny's face.

She did not utter aloud one word of what she was reading, but presently
she gave a little half-suppressed cry.

"Oh, granny, what's the matter?"  Mona could keep quiet no longer.

"Oh, dear! oh, dear!  Here's a pretty fine thing.  Your father wants you
to go home."

Mona's face fell again.  Then he had not sent any money, and she would not
be able to have her hat!  For the moment nothing else seemed to matter.

"What does he want me home for?" she asked sullenly.

"Your stepmother has been ill again, and the doctor says she mustn't be
left alone, and must have someone to help her.  She's terrible nervous
when your father's away to the fishing, so you've got to be fetched home."
Mrs. Barnes spoke resentfully.  Her daughter, Mona's mother, had died when
Mona was a sturdy little maiden of ten, and for eighteen months Mona had
run wild.  Her father could not bear to part with her, nor would he have
anyone to live with them.  So Mona had been his housekeeper, or rather,
the house had kept itself, for Mona had taken no care of it, nor of her
father's comforts, nor of her own clothes, or his.  She just let
everything go, and had a gloriously lazy, happy time, with no one to
restrain her, or make her do anything she did not want to do.

She was too young, of course, to be put in such a position; but she did
not even do what she might have done, and no one was surprised, and no one
blamed her father--no one, at least, but Mrs. Barnes--when at the end of
eighteen months he married pretty, gentle Lucy Garland, one of the
housemaids at the Squire's.

Mrs. Barnes, though, resented very strongly anyone being put in her dead
daughter's place, with control over her daughter's child, and she had
written angrily enough to Peter, demanding that Mona should be given up to
her.  And though he doubted the wisdom of it, to please and pacify her,
Peter Carne had let her have the child.  "Not for good," he said,
"for I can't part with her altogether, but for a long visit."

"If she puts Mona against Lucy, it'll be a bad job," he thought
anxiously, "and mischief may be done that it'll take more than I know to
undo."

However, Mona felt none of the dislike of her stepmother that her
grandmother felt.  In fact, she was too happy-go-lucky and fond of change
to feel very strongly about anything.  She had got her father's home and
all his affairs into such a muddle she was not sorry to go right away and
leave it all.  She was tired of even the little housework she did.
She hated having to get up and light the fire, and, on the whole, she was
very glad for someone else to step in and take it all off her shoulders.
And as she had left her home before her stepmother came to it, she had not
experienced what it was to have someone in authority over her.

So Mona felt no real grievance against her stepmother, and, with all her
faults, she was too healthy-minded to invent one.  Her grandmother's not
too kind remarks about her had fallen on indifferent ears, and,
fortunately, had had no effect except to make Mona feel a sort of mild
scorn for anyone so constantly ailing as Lucy Carne was.

She felt no sympathy for the cause of the ill-health, even though she knew
that it all began one bitter, stormy night when Lucy and the wives of the
other men who were out at sea stood for hours watching for the first signs
of the little storm-tossed boats, in the agony of their hearts, deaf and
blind, and entirely unconscious of the driving sheets of rain and the
biting east wind which soaked and chilled them to the bone.

When at daybreak the storm lulled, and the boats, with all safe on board,
were seen beating up before the wind, all the misery and wet and cold were
forgotten as they hurried joyfully home to make up big fires and prepare
hot food for the exhausted men.  But more than one woman paid heavily for
the night's experience, and Lucy Carne was among them.

For days she had lain writhing in the agony of rheumatic fever.  For days
she had lain at the gates of death, and when at last she came back to
life again, it was such a wreck of her old self that she was scarcely able
to do anything.  And this in Granny Barnes' eyes had been an added
grievance.

It was a greater grievance than ever now, for it meant that her
grandchild, her very own daughter's child, was to be taken from her, to
work for the stranger who had taken her daughter's place.

Fortunately, Mona had no such foolish thoughts.  Her only grievance was
that the money which might have been spent on a new hat would have to be
spent on the carrier.  "And nobody will be any the better for it, except
Mr. Darbie, and he's got lots already.  They say he has a whole bagful in
a box under his bed."

"Your stepmother will be better off.  She'll have you," said Granny Barnes
crossly.  "Well, the letter's spoilt my tea for me.  Anyway, I don't want
anything more.  I've had enough for one while."

Mona looked surprised.  "Oh, has it! I thought you were hungry, granny.
I am," and she helped herself to another slice of bread and butter.
"I wonder which day I'd better go?--and I must wear my best frock, mustn't
I?  Such a lot of people go by the van, and you've got to sit so close you
can't help seeing if anybody's clothes are shabby."

"Um, you seem to have thought it all out, but you don't seem to think
anything of leaving me, nor of what my feelings may be.  You'd better wear
your best frock and your best hat too, then your father and your
stepmother will see that you want something new for Sundays.  It's as well
folk should learn that all the money can't be spent on doctors and
physic--that there's other things wanted too!"

But this speech only sent Mona's expectations higher, and lessened her
regrets at leaving.  If going home to Seacombe and her new mother meant
having a new hat and dress, she would only be the more pleased at having
to go.  She was so occupied with these thoughts that she did not notice
her grandmother rise and leave the kitchen, nor did she see the tears in
the sad old eyes.  But her dreams of a journey, clad all in her best,
were suddenly broken in upon by a sharp scream.  The scream came from the
backyard.  Mona flew out at once.  It was getting dark out of doors now,
but not too dark for her to see her grandmother stretched on the ground
with faggots of wood lying all around her.

For a moment Mona's heart seemed to stand still with fear.  She thought
her grandmother was killed, or, at any rate, had broken her leg.  Then, to
her intense relief, Mrs. Barnes groaned, and began to rouse herself.

"However did these things come scattered about like this, I should like to
know," she cried angrily.  But in her relief at knowing she was able to
move and speak Mona did not mind granny's crossness.

"Didn't you pull them down?"

"I pull them down." Granny's voice was shrill with indignation.  "It was
they pulled me down!  I wonder I wasn't killed outright.  It must have
been those cats that knocked them over.  They are always ranging all over
the yard.  I shall tell Mrs. Lane if she can't keep them in she'll have to
get rid of them.  Oh, dear, what a shaking I've had, and I might have
broke my leg and my head and everything.  Well, can't you try an' give me
a hand to help me up?"

But Mona was standing dumb-stricken.  It had come back to her at last.
It was she who had pulled down the faggots and left them.  She had meant
to go out again and pick them up, and, of course, had forgotten about
them, and she might have been the cause of a terrible accident!
She was so shocked and so full of remorse, she could not find a word to
utter.  Fortunately, it was dark, and her grandmother was too absorbed to
notice her embarrassment.  All her time was taken up in getting on to her
feet again and peering about her to try and catch sight of the cats.

Perhaps if granny had been less determined to wage war on the cats,
Mona might have found courage to make her confession, but while she waited
for a chance to speak her courage ebbed away.  She had done so many wrong
things that afternoon, she was ashamed to own to more, and, after all, she
thought, it would not make it better for granny if she did know who really
scattered the faggots.  So in the end Mona held her tongue, and contented
herself with giving what assistance she could.

"This is Black Monday for me!" she said to herself as she helped her
grandmother into the house again.  "Never mind, I'll begin better
to-morrow.  There's one good thing, there's no real harm done."

She was not so sure, though, that 'no harm was done' when she woke the
next morning and heard loud voices and sound of quarrelling coming from
the garden.  She soon, indeed, began to feel that there had been a great
deal of harm done.

"Well, what I say is," her grandmother cried shrilly, "your cats were
nearly the death of me, and I'll trouble you to keep them in your own
place."

"And what I say is," cried her neighbour, "my cats were never near your
faggot rick.  They didn't go into your place at all last night; they were
both asleep by my kitchen fire from three in the afternoon till after we'd
had our supper.  Me and my husband both saw them.  You can ask him
yourself if you like."

"I shan't ask him.  I wouldn't stoop to bandy words about it.  I know, and
I've a right to my own opinion."

"Do you mean to say you don't believe what I say?" cried Mrs. Lane
indignantly.  "Do you mean to tell me I'm telling an untruth?
Well, Mrs. Barnes, if you won't speak to my husband, and won't believe me,
perhaps you'll ask your Mona!  I daresay she can tell you how the faggots
got scattered.  She was out there, I saw her from----"

"That's right! Try and put it off on the poor child! Do you expect me to
believe that my Mona would have left those faggots----"

"Ask her, that's all," said Mrs. Lane, meaningly.  "And now I've done.
I ain't going to have anything more to say.  You're too vi'lent and
onreasonable, Mrs. Barnes, and I'll trouble you not to address me again
till you've 'pologised."

Granny laughed, a short sarcastic laugh.  "'Pologise!" she cried shrilly,
"and me in the right too!  No, not if I lived next door to you for fifty
years, I wouldn't 'pologise.  When you've 'pologised to me, Mrs. Lane,
I'll begin to think about speaking to you again."

Mona, standing shivering by the window, listened to it all with a sick
feeling of shame and dismay.  "Oh, why does granny say such dreadful
things!  Oh, I wish I'd spoken out at once!  Now, when granny asks me,
I shall have to tell her, and oh," miserably, "won't she be angry?"

But Mona escaped that ordeal.  Her grandmother did not mention the
subject, for one reason; she felt too unwell; an outburst of anger always
made her ill; and for another, she was already ashamed of herself and of
what she had said.  Altogether, she was so uncomfortable about the whole
matter, and so ashamed, and vexed, she wanted to try to forget all about
it.



CHAPTER II.


John Darbie and his one-horse van journeyed from Milbrook to Seacombe
every Tuesday and Friday, passing Mrs. Barnes' cottage on their way;
and on Wednesdays and Saturdays he journeyed home again.  The two places
were only ten miles apart, but, as John's horse 'Lion' never travelled
faster than three miles an hour, and frequent stops had to be made to pick
up passengers and luggage, and put down other passengers and other
luggage, the journey was seldom accomplished in less than six hours.

The day that Mona travelled to Seacombe the journey took longer than
usual, for they had to stop at Barnes Gate--an old turnpike--to pick up a
couple of young pigs, which were to be brought by a farm boy to meet them
there; and as the pigs refused to be picked up, and were determined to
race back to their home, it took John and the farmer's boy, and some of
the passengers, quite a long time to persuade them that their fate lay in
another direction.

Mona, homesick and depressed, was quite glad of the distraction, though
she felt sorry for the poor pigs.  At that moment she felt sorry for
anyone or anything which had to leave its old home for a new one.

Only a few days had elapsed since that evening when her father's letter
had come, and her grandmother had fallen over the faggots, but such long,
unhappy days they had been.  Her grandmother had been silent and
depressed, and she herself had been very unhappy, and everything had
seemed wrong.  Sometimes she had longed to be gone, and the parting over.
Yet, when at last the day came, and she had to say good-bye to granny,
and her own little bedroom, and the cottage, and to leave without saying
good-bye to Mrs. Lane, it seemed almost more than she could bear.
She looked out at the cottage and at granny, standing waving her
handkerchief, but she could scarcely see either because of the mist in her
eyes, and, when at last the van turned a corner which cut them off
entirely from view, the mist in her eyes changed to rain.

If it had not been for the other people in the van, Mona would have jumped
out and run back again, and have confessed all to granny, and have been
happy once more.  She knew that if she asked granny to forgive her,
she would do so before long, even if she was vexed with her at first.

But Mona's courage failed her.  The people in the van would try to stop
her, and very likely would succeed, and there would be such a chattering
and fuss.  Her spirit sank at the thought of it, and so she hesitated and
wavered until it was too late.

It was not to be wondered at that she welcomed the little scene with the
pigs at the four cross-roads, and felt quite glad when Mr. Darbie asked
her to get out and stand at the end of one of the roads to keep the poor
little things from running down it.

"We shan't get to Seacombe till nightfall," grumbled the old man when at
last he had got the pair into two sacks, and had fastened them up securely
on the tail-board of the van.

"And I've got to catch the five o'clock train from there," said one of the
passengers sourly.  "If ever you want to be a little bit earlier than
usual, you're bound to be later.  It's always the way."

Old John Darbie always recovered his temper when other people had lost
theirs.  He realised how foolish they looked and sounded.  "Aw, don't you
worry, missus," he said, with a mischievous twinkle in his eyes.
"She'll wait for me.  They wouldn't let no train start 'fore me and my
passengers was in!"

All the rest of the passengers laughed, Mona too, at which the sour-faced
woman glared at them angrily.  Then they jogged on again, and by that time
Mona had recovered sufficiently to be able to take more interest in her
surroundings.

She noticed that the woman beside her, and the woman opposite her, were
looking her up and down, and she felt very glad that she had on her best
hat and dress.  She did wish, though, that she had mended the hole in her
gloves, for one of the women seemed more attracted by them than by
anything else, and it was really rather embarrassing.  She longed to put
her hands behind her back to hide them, but that would have looked too
pointed; so, instead, she turned round and looked out of the window,
pretending to be lost to everything but the view.

It was a very pretty road that they were travelling, but very hilly,
and Lion's pace grew, if possible, even slower.  One or two of the
passengers complained loudly, but Mona was enjoying herself thoroughly
now.  To her everything was of interest, from the hedges and the ploughed
fields, just showing a tinge of green, to the cottages and farms they
passed here and there.  To many people each mile would have seemed just
like the last, but to Mona each had a charm of its own.  She knew all the
houses by sight, and knew the people who dwelt in some of them, and when
by and by the van drew near to Seacombe, and at last, between a dip in the
land, she caught her first glimpse of the sea, her heart gave a great
leap, and a something caught in her throat.  This was home, this was her
real home.  Mona knew it now, if she had never realised it before.

At Hillside something had always been lacking--she could hardly have told
what, but somehow, she had never loved the place itself.  It had never
been quite 'home' to her, and never could be.

"I expect you're tired, dear, ain't you?" the woman beside her asked in a
kindly voice.  The face Mona turned to her was pale, but it was with
feeling, not tiredness.

"Oh, no," she cried, hardly knowing what she felt, or how to put it into
words.  "I was a little while ago--but I ain't now.  I--I don't think I
could ever feel tired while I could see that!" She pointed towards the
stretch of blue water, with the setting sun making a road of gold right
across it and into the heaven that joined it.

The woman smiled sadly.  "Are you so fond of it as all that!  I wish I
was.  I can't abide it--it frightens me.  I never look at it if I can help
it.  It makes me feel bad."

"And it makes me feel good," thought Mona, but she was shy of saying so.
"I think I should be ashamed to do anything mean when I was in sight of
the sea," she added to herself.  And then the old horse drew up suddenly,
and she saw that they had actually reached their journey's end.

As she stepped down from the van and stood alone in the inn yard, where
John Darbie always unloaded, and put up his horse and van, Mona for the
first time felt shy and nervous.  She and her new mother were really
strangers to each other.  They had met but once, and that for only a
little while.

"And p'raps we shan't get on a bit," thought Mona.  "P'raps she's very
particular, and will be always scolding!" and she felt very miserable.
And then, as she looked about her, and found that no one, as far as she
could tell, had come to meet her, she began to feel very forlorn, and
ill-used too.  All the sharp little unkind remarks about Lucy Carne, which
had fallen from Granny Barnes' lips, came back to her mind.

"I do think somebody might have come to meet me!" she said to herself, and
being tired, and nervous, and a little bit homesick for granny, the tears
rushed to her eyes.  Hastily diving in her pocket for her handkerchief,
her fingers touched her purse, and she suddenly realised that she had not
paid John Darbie his fare!  With a thrill and a blush at her own
forgetfulness, she hurried back to where he was busy unloading his van.
He had already taken down the pigs and some bundles of peasticks, and a
chair which wanted a new cane seat, and was about to mount to the top to
drag down the luggage which was up there, when he saw Mona waiting for
him.

"Please, here's my fare.  I'm sorry I forgot it, and how am I to get my
box up to my house?"

"Get your box up?  Why the same way as you'll get yourself up.  Hop inside
again, and I'll drive 'ee both up in a minute.  I promised your mother I
would.  You hold on to your money now, it'll be time enough to settle up
when I've done my job," and the old man chuckled amiably at his little
joke.

But Mona did not want to get back into the close, stuffy van again, and
sit there in solitary state, with everyone who passed by staring at her.
So, as soon as John Darbie was safely on the top and busy amongst the
boxes there, she walked quietly out of the yard and into the street.

How familiar it all was, and how unchanged!  After Milbrook--the little
ugly new town, scarcely worthy the name of town--and the hamlet where her
granny lived, the street and houses looked small and old-fashioned, but
they looked homelike and strong.  The Milbrook houses, with their walls
half a brick thick, and their fronts all bow-windows, would not have
lasted any time in little stormy, wind-swept Seacombe.  Experience had
taught Seacombe folk that their walls must be nearly as solid as the
cliffs on which many of them were built, and the windows must be small and
set deep in the walls; otherwise they were as likely as not to be blown in
altogether when the winter storms raged; that roofs must come well down to
meet the little windows, like heavy brows protecting the eyes beneath,
which under their shelter, could gaze out defiantly at sea and storm.

To Mona, seeing them again after many months' absence, the houses looked
rough and poor, and plain; yet she loved them, and, as she walked up the
steep, narrow street, she glanced about her with eager, glowing eyes.
For the time her loneliness and nervousness were forgotten.  Here and
there someone recognised her, but at that hour there were never many
people about.

"Why, Mona Carne! is it really you!  Well, your mother and father'll be
glad to have you home again." Mona beamed gratefully on the speaker.

"Is it really Mona," cried another.  "Why, now, you've grown!  I didn't
know you till Mrs. Row said your name!"

Mona began to feel less forlorn and ill-used, and she was more glad than
ever that she had on her best clothes, and had put her hair up in squibs
the night before.

Outside one of the few shops Seacombe possessed, she drew up and looked in
at the windows with interest.  They had improved a little.  The draper's
was particularly gay with new spring things, and to Mona who had not seen
a shop lately, unless she walked the three miles to Milbrook, the sight
was fascinating.  One window was full of ties, gloves, and ribbons; the
other was as gay as a garden with flowers of every kind and colour, all
blooming at once.  Many of them were crude and common, but to Mona's eyes
they were beautiful.  There were wreaths of wall-flowers, of roses, and of
lilacs, but the prettiest of all to Mona was one of roses and
forget-me-nots woven in together.

"Oh," she gasped, "how I'd love to have that one!  Oh, I'd love it!"
There were hats in the window, too.  Pretty, light, wide-brimmed hats.
Mona's eyes travelled backwards and forwards over them till she saw one of
the palest green straw, the colour of a duck's egg.

"Oh, wouldn't the roses and forget-me-nots look lovely on that, with just
a bow of white ribbon at the back.  Oh, I wish----"

"Why, it's Mona Carne!" cried a voice behind her, and Mona, wheeling
swiftly round, found Millie Higgins at her elbow.

"Why, who ever would have thought of meeting you strolling up the street
just as though you had never been away!" cried Millie.  "But you've grown,
Mona.  You are ever so much taller than when you went away, and your
hair's longer too.  Do you think I am changed?"

Mona was delighted.  She wanted to be tall, and she wanted to have nice
long hair.  She had never cared for Millie Higgins before, but at that
moment she felt that she liked her very much indeed, and they chattered
eagerly to each other, lost to everything but the news they had to pour
into each other's ears.

After a little while, though, Millie tired of talking.  She wanted to get
on, and what Millie wanted to do she generally did.  "I must fly--and
there's your poor mother home worrying herself all this time to a
fiddle-string, wondering what has become of you.  She expected the van an
hour ago, and had got your tea all ready and waiting for you."

Mona started guiltily, and then began to excuse herself.  "Well, we were
late in coming, we were so long on the road.  Mr. Darbie said he'd drive
me up, but I liked walking best.  If I had gone up by the van I shouldn't
have been there yet, so it's all the same."

"The van!  Why, it's gone by.  Only a minute ago, though.  If you run
you'll be there almost as soon as he will."

Without staying to say good-bye, Mona ran, but either Millie's minute had
been a very long one, or 'Lion' had stepped out more briskly at the end of
the day than at the beginning, for when Mona got to the house John Darbie
was just coming away.  "Thank'ee, ma'am," he was saying, and Mona saw him
putting some coins in his pocket.

"I've got the----" she began to call out to him, but stopped, for her new
mother came out to the gate, and looked anxiously down the hill.  She was
looking for herself, Mona knew, and a fit of shyness came over her which
drove every other thought from her mind.

But almost as quickly as the shyness came it disappeared again, for Lucy's
eyes fell on her, and, her face alight with pleasure, Lucy came forward
with arms outstretched in welcome.  "Why, you poor little tired thing,
you," she cried, kissing her warmly, "you must be famished!  Come in, do.
I was quite frightened about you, for I've been expecting you this hour
and more, and then when Mr. Darbie came, and brought only your box,
it seemed as if I wasn't ever going to see you.  Come in, dear," drawing
Mona's arm through her own, and leading her into the house.  "Sit down and
rest a bit before you go up to see your room."

Exhausted with excitement, and talking, and the extra exertion, Lucy
herself had to sit down for a few minutes to get her breath.  Mona, more
tired than she realised until she came to sit down, lay back in her
father's big chair and looked about her with shy interest.  How familiar
it all seemed, yet how changed.  Instead of the old torn, soiled drab
paper, the walls were covered with a pretty blue one, against which the
dresser and table and the old familiar china showed up spotless and
dainty; the steel on the stove might have been silver, the floor was as
clean and snowy as the table.

Mona's memory of it all was very different.  In those days there had been
muddle, dust, grease everywhere, the grate was always greasy and choked
with ashes, the table sloppy and greasy, the floor unwashed, even unswept,
the dressers with more dust than anything else on them.  Mona could
scarcely believe that the same place and things could look so different.

"Oh, how nice it all is," she said in a voice full of admiration, and Lucy
smiled with pleasure.  She knew that many girls would not have admitted
any improvement even if they had seen it.

"Shall we go upstairs now?" she said.  "I've got my breath again," and she
led the way up the steep little staircase, which Mona remembered so well.

"You know the way to your old room, don't you?"

Mona walked ahead to it, but at the door she drew up with a cry of
delight.  "Oh, Mother!" she turned to say with a beaming face, and without
noticing that she had called her by the name about which she and granny
had debated so long.

Lucy noticed it though, and coloured with pleasure.  She had felt more shy
than had Mona, about suggesting what her stepchild should call her.
"Thank you, dear, for calling me that," she said, putting her arm about
her and kissing her.  "I didn't know, I wondered how you would feel about
it."

But Mona was too delighted with everything she saw to feel anything but
pleasure and gratitude then.  The walls had been papered with a pretty
rose-covered paper, the shabby little bed had been painted white.
Pretty pink curtains hung at the window, and beside the bed stood a small
bookcase with all Mona's own books in it.  Books that she had left lying
about torn and shabby, and had thought would have been thrown away, or
burnt, long ago.  Lucy had collected them, and mended and cleaned them.
And Lucy, who had brought to her new house many of the ideas she had
gathered while in service at the Squire's, had painted the furniture white
too, to match the bed.

Mona had never in her life before seen anything so pretty and dainty.
"Isn't it lovely!" she cried, sitting down plump on the clean white quilt,
and crushing it.  "I can't believe it's for me."  She looked about her
with admiring eyes as she dragged off her hat and tossed it from her,
accidentally knocking over the candlestick as she did so.

Lucy stooped and picked up both.  The candlestick was chipped, the hat was
certainly not improved.

"The chipped place will not show much," said Lucy in her gentle, tired
voice, "but you've crushed the flowers in your hat."

Mona looked at the hat with indifferent eyes.  "Have I? Oh, well, it's my
last year's one.  I shall want a new one for the summer."

"Shall you, dear?"

Mona did not notice the little anxious pucker of her mother's forehead.
Carried away by all that had been done for her already, she had the
feeling that money must be plentiful at Cliff Cottage.  Her father's boat
had done well, she supposed.

But before any more was said, a sound of footsteps reached them from
below, and a loud voice, gruff but kindly, shouted through the little
place "Lucy, where are you, my girl?  Has the little maid come?" and the
next moment Mona was darting down the stairs and, taking the last in one
flying leap, as in the old days, sprang into her father's arms.

"My word!  What a big maid you are grown!" he cried, holding her a little
way from him, and eyeing her proudly.  "Granny Barnes must have taken good
care of you!  And now you've come to take care of Lucy and me.
Eh!  Isn't that it?"

"Yes, dad, that's it," cried Mona, excitedly, and sat back with all her
weight on the pretty flowers and the fresh eggs that her grandmother had
sent to Lucy by her.

Her father looked vexed.  He knew how much his ailing wife enjoyed fresh
eggs, and how seldom she allowed herself one, but he could not very well
express his feelings just when Mona had come back to her home after her
long absence, so he only laughed a little ruefully, and said, "Same as
ever, Mona!  Same as ever!"

But, to his surprise, tears welled up into Mona's eyes.  "I--I didn't mean
to be," she said tremulously.  "I meant to try to be careful--but I--I've
done nothing but break things ever since I came.  You--you'll be wishing
you had never had me home."

"We shan't do that, I know," said Lucy kindly.  "There's some days when
one seems to break everything one touches--but they don't happen often.
Now I'll make the tea.  I'm sure we all want some.  Come, Peter, and take
your own chair.  There's no moving around the kitchen till we've put you
in your corner.  Mona, will you sit in the window?"

"I think I ought to stand," said Mona tragically.  "I've sat down once too
often already."

At which they all burst out laughing, and drew round the table in the
happiest of spirits.



CHAPTER III.


From the moment she lay down in her little white bed, Mona had slept the
whole night through.  She had risen early the day before--early at least,
for her, for her grandmother always got up first, and lighted the fire and
swept the kitchen before she called Mona, who got down, as a rule, in time
to sit down to the breakfast her grandmother had got ready for her.

On this first morning in her home she woke of her own accord, and
half-waking, half-sleeping, and with not a thought of getting up, she
turned over and was about to snuggle down into the cosy warmth again,
when across her drowsy eyes flashed the light from her sunny window.

"Why, how does the window get over there?" she asked herself, and then
recollection came pouring over her, and sleepiness vanished, for life
seemed suddenly very pleasant and interesting, and full of things to do,
and see, and think about.

Presently the clock in the church-tower struck seven.  "Only seven!
Then I've got another hour before I need get up!  But I'll just have a
look out to see what it all looks like.  How funny it seems to be back
again!"  She slipped out of bed and across the floor to draw back the
curtains.  Outside the narrow street stretched sunny and deserted.
The garden, drenched with dew, was bathed in sunshine too.  But it was not
on the garden or the street that her eyes lingered, but on the sea beyond
the low stone wall on the opposite side of the way.  Deep blue it
stretched, its bosom gently heaving, blue as the sky above, and the jewels
with which its bosom was decked flashed and sparkled in the morning
sunshine.

"Oh-h-h!" gasped Mona.  "Oh-h-h!  I don't know how anyone can ever live
away from the sea!"

In spite of the sun, though, the morning was cold, with a touch of frost
in the air which nipped Mona's toes, and sent her scuttling back to her
bed again.  She remembered, joyfully, from the old days, that if she
propped herself up a little she could see the sea from her bed.
So she lay with her pillow doubled up under her head, and the bedclothes
drawn up to her chin, and gazed and gazed at the sea and sky, until
presently she was on the sea, in a boat, floating through waves covered
with diamonds, and the diamonds came pattering against the sides of the
boat, as though inviting her to put out her hands and gather them up,
and so become rich for ever.  Strangely enough, though, she did not heed,
or care for them.  All she wanted was a big bunch of the forget-me-nots
which grew on the opposite shore, and she rowed and rowed, with might and
main, to reach the forget-me-nots, and she put up a sail and flew before
the wind, yet no nearer could she get to the patch of blue and green.

"But I can smell them!" she cried.  "I can smell them!" and then
remembered that forget-me-nots had no scent and realised that the scent
was that of the wallflowers growing in her own garden; and suddenly all
the spirit went out of her, for she did not care for what she could reach,
but only for the unattainable; and the oars dropped out of her hands, and
the diamonds no longer tapped against the boat, for the boat was still,
and Mona sat in it disappointed and sullen.  The sun went in too,
and nothing was the same but the scent of the flowers.  And then, through
her sullen thoughts, the sound of her father's voice came to her.

"Mona! Mona!  It's eight o'clock.  Ain't you getting up yet? I want you to
see about the breakfast.  Your mother isn't well."

Mona jumped up with a start, and felt rather cross in consequence.
"All right, father," she called back.  "I'll come as soon as I can,"
but to herself she added, in an injured tone, "I s'pose this is what I've
been had home for!  Hard lines, I call it, to have to get up and light the
fire the very first morning."

Her father called through the door again.  "The fire's lighted, and
burning nicely, and I've put the kettle on.  I lighted it before I went
out.  I didn't call 'ee then, because I thought I heard you moving."

Then her father had been up and dressed for an hour or two, and at work
already!  A faint sense of shame crossed Mona's mind.  "All right,
father," she called back more amiably, "I'll dress as quick as I can.
I won't be more than a few minutes."

"That's a good maid," with a note of relief in his voice, and then she
heard him go softly down the stairs.

It always takes one a little longer than usual to dress in a strange
place, but it took Mona longer than it need have done, for instead of
unpacking her box the night before, and hanging up her frocks, and putting
her belongings neatly away in their places, she had just tumbled
everything over anyhow, to get at her nightdress, and so had left them.
It had taken her quite as long to find the nightdress as it would have to
lift the things out and put them in their proper places, for the garment
was almost at the bottom of the box, but Mona did not think of that.
Now, though, when she wanted to find her morning frock and apron, she grew
impatient and irritable.  "Perhaps if I tip everything out on the floor
I'll find the old things that way!" she snapped crossly.  "I s'pose I
shan't find them until they've given me all the trouble they can,"
and she had actually thrown a few things in every direction, when she
suddenly stopped and sat back on her heels.

"I've half a mind to put on my best dress again, then I can come and look
for the old one when I ain't in such a hurry."  The dress--her best one--
was lying temptingly on a chair close beside her.  She hesitated,
looked at it again, and picked it up.  As she did so, something fell out
of the pocket.  It was her purse, the little blue one her granny had
bought for her at Christmas.  She picked it up and opened it, and as she
did so the colour rushed over her face.  In one of the pockets was the
eighteenpence which had been given to her to pay John Darbie with.
"I--I suppose I ought to have given it to mother, but it went right out of
my head."  She completed her dressing in a thoughtful mood, but she did
find, and put on, her old morning dress.  "I suppose I had better tell
her--about the money."  She put the blue purse in a drawer, however,
and tossed in a lot of things on top of it.

When at last she got downstairs it was already past half-past eight,
and the fire was burning low again.  "Oh, dear," she cried, irritably,
"how ever am I going to get breakfast with a fire like that and how am I
to know what to get or where anything is kept. I think I might have had a
day or two given me to settle down in.  I s'pose I'd better get some
sticks first and make the fire up.  Bother the old thing, it only went out
just to vex me!"

She was feeling hungry and impatient, and out of tune with everything.
At Hillside she would have been just sitting down to a comfortable meal
which had cost her no trouble to get.  For the moment she wished she was
back there again.

As she returned to the kitchen with her hands full of wood, her mother
came down the stairs.  She looked very white and ill, and very fragile,
but she was fully dressed.

"I thought you were too bad to get up," said Mona, unsmilingly.
"I was going to bring you up some breakfast as soon as I could,
but the silly old fire was gone down----"

"I was afraid it would.  That was why I got up.  I couldn't be still,
I was so fidgeted about your father's breakfast.  He'll be home for it in
a few minutes.  He's had a busy morning, and must want something."

Mona looked glummer than ever.  "I never had to get up early at granny's,"
she said in a reproachful voice.  "I ain't accustomed to it.  I s'pose I
shall have to get so."

"Did you let your grandmother--did your grandmother come down first and
get things ready for you?" asked Lucy, surprised; and something in her
voice, or words, made Mona feel ashamed, instead of proud of the fact.

"Granny liked getting up early," she said, excusingly.  Lucy did not make
any comment, and Mona felt more ashamed than if she had.

"Hasn't father had his breakfast yet?" she asked presently.  "He always
used to come home for it at eight."

"He did to-day, but you see there wasn't any.  The fire wasn't lighted
even.  He thought you were dressing, and he wouldn't let me get up.
When he'd lighted the fire he went off to work again.  He's painting his
boat, and he said he'd finish giving her her first coat before he'd stop
again; then she could be drying.  I'll manage better another morning.
I daresay I'll feel better to-morrow."

Lucy did look very unwell, and Mona's heart was touched.  "I wish father
had told me earlier," she said in a less grumbling tone.  "I was awake at
seven, and got up and looked out of the window.  I never thought of
dressing then, it seemed so early, and I didn't hear father moving."

"Never mind, dear, we will manage better another time.  It's nice having
you home, Mona; the house seems so much more cheerful.  You will be a
great comfort to us, I know."

Mona's ill-temper vanished.  "I do want to be," she said shyly, "and I am
glad to be home.  Oh, mother, it was lovely to see the sea again.
I felt--oh, I can't tell you how I felt when I first caught a glimpse of
it.  I don't know how ever I stayed away so long."

Lucy laughed ruefully.  "I wish I loved it like that," she said, "but I
can't make myself like it even.  It always makes me feel miserable."

A heavy step was heard on the cobbled path outside, and for a moment a big
body cut off the flood of sunshine pouring in at the doorway.
"Is breakfast ready?" demanded Peter Carne's loud, good-tempered voice.
"Hullo, Lucy!  Then you got up, after all!  Well--of all the obstinate
women!"

Lucy smiled up at him bravely.  "Yes, I've got down to breakfast.
I thought I'd rather have it down here with company than upstairs alone.
Isn't it nice having Mona home, father?"

Peter laughed.  "I ain't going to begin by spoiling the little maid with
flattery, but yet, 'tis very," and he beamed good-naturedly on both.
"Now, then, let's begin.  I'm as hungry as a hunter."

By that time the cloth was laid, a dish of fried bacon and bread was
keeping hot in the oven, and smelling most appetisingly to hungry folk,
and the kettle was about to boil over.  Through the open doorway the
sunshine and the scent of wallflowers poured in.

"Them there wallflowers beat anything I ever came across for smell,"
remarked Peter as he finished his second cup of tea.

"I dreamed about wallflowers," said Mona, "and I seemed to smell them
quite strong," and she told them her dream--at least a part of it.
She left out about the forget-me-nots that she rowed and rowed to try and
get.  She could not have told why she left out that part, but already a
vague thought had come to her--one that she was ashamed of, even though it
was so vague, and it had to do with forget-me-nots.

All the time she had been helping about the breakfast, and all the time
after, when she and her stepmother were alone again, she kept saying to
herself, "Shall I give her the money, shall I keep it?" and her heart
would thrill, and then sink, and inside her she kept saying, "There is no
harm in it?--It is all the same in the end."  And then, almost before
she knew what she was doing, she had taken the easy, crooked, downhill
path, with its rocks and thorns so cleverly hidden.

"Mona, haven't you got any print frocks for mornings, and nice aprons?"

Mona's thoughts came back suddenly from "Shall I?  Shall I not?" and the
eyes with which she looked at her mother were half shamed, half
frightened.  "Any--any what?" she stuttered.

"Nice morning aprons and washing frocks?  I don't like to see shabby,
soiled ones, even for only doing work in."

"I hadn't thought about it," said Mona, with more interest.  "What else
can one wear?  I nearly put on my best one, but I thought I hadn't
better."

"Oh, no, not your best."

"Well, what else is there to wear?  Do you always have a print one like
you've got on now?"

"Yes, and big aprons, and sleeves.  Then one can tell when they are
dirty."

"Oh, I thought you put on that 'cause you were wearing out what you'd got
left over.  You were in service, weren't you, before you married father?"

"Yes."

"I haven't got any print dresses.  I haven't even got a white one.
I've two aprons like this," holding out a fanciful thing trimmed with
lace.  "That's all, and I never saw any sleeves; I don't know what they
are like."

"I'll have to get you some as soon as father has his next big haul.
You'd like to wear nice clean prints, if you'd got them, wouldn't you?"

"Oh, yes!" eagerly.  But after a moment she added: "I do want a summer
hat, though, and I don't s'pose I could have both?"  Her eyes sought her
mother's face anxiously.  Lucy looked grave and a little troubled.
"Wasn't that your summer hat that you had on yesterday?  It was a very
pretty one.  I'm so fond of wreaths of daisies and grasses, aren't you?"

"Yes--I was--I'm tired of them now.  I wore that hat a lot last summer."

"Did you?  Well, you kept it very nicely.  I thought it was a new one, it
looked so fresh and pretty."

"I'd like to have one trimmed with forget-me-nots this year," Mona went on
hurriedly, paying no heed to her mother's last remarks.

"They are very pretty," agreed Lucy, absently.  In her mind she was
wondering how she could find the money for all these different things.

"I've got eighteenpence," broke in Mona, and the plunge was taken.
She was keeping the eighteen-pence, though she knew it belonged either to
her granny or to Lucy.  As soon as the words were spoken she almost wished
them back again, but it was too late, and she went on her downhill way.

"Mother, if you'll get me the hat, I'll buy the wreath myself.  They've
got some lovely ones down at Tamlin's for one and five three.  There are
some at one and 'leven three, but that's sixpence more, and I haven't got
enough."

"Very well, dear, we'll think about it.  It's early yet for summer hats."
She was trying to think of things she could do without, that Mona might
have her hat.  If she had been her own child, she would have told her
plainly that she did not need, and could not have a new one, but it was
not easy--as things were--to do that.

Mona's heart leaped with joy.  Though she had known Lucy such a little
while, she somehow felt that she could trust her not to forget.
That when she said she would think about a thing, she would think about
it, and already she saw with her mind's eye, the longed-for hat, the blue
wreath, and the bow of ribbon, and her face beamed with happiness.

"I can do without the aprons and the print frocks," she said, in the
generosity of her heart, though it gave her a wrench.  But Lucy would not
hear of that.  She had her own opinion about the grubby-looking blue
serge, and the fancy apron, which were considered 'good enough' for
mornings.

"No, dear, you need them more than you need the hat.  If ever anyone
should be clean it's when one is making beds, and cooking, and doing all
that sort of thing, I think, don't you?"

Mona had never given the subject a thought before.  In fact, she had done
so little work while with her grandmother, and when she 'kept house'
herself had cared so little about appearance or cleanliness, or anything,
that it had never occurred to her that such things mattered.  But now that
her stepmother appealed to her in this way she felt suddenly a sense of
importance and a glow of interest.

"Oh, yes! and I'll put my hair up, and always have on a nice white apron
and a collar; they do look so pretty over pink frocks, don't they?"

"Yes, and I must teach you how to wash and get them up."

"Oh!"  Mona's interest grew suddenly lukewarm.  "I hate washing and
ironing, don't you, mother?"

"I like other kinds of work better, perhaps.  I think I should like the
washing if I didn't get so tired with it.  I don't seem to have the
strength to do it as I want it done.  It is lovely, though, to see things
growing clean under one's hand, isn't it?"

But Mona had never learnt to take pride in her work.  "I don't know,"
she answered indifferently.  "I should never have things that were
always wanting washing."

Lucy rose to go about her morning's work.  "Oh, come now," she said,
smiling, "I can't believe that.  Don't you think your little room looks
prettier with the white vallance and quilt and the frill across the window
than it would without?"

"Oh, yes!" Mona agreed enthusiastically.  "But then I didn't have to wash
them and iron them."

"Well, I had to, and I enjoyed it, because I was thinking how nice they
would make your room look, and how pleased you would be."

"I don't see that.  If you were doing them for yourself, of course, you'd
be pleased, but I can't see why anyone should be pleased about what other
people may like."

"Oh, Mona! can't you?"  Lucy looked amazed.  "Haven't you ever heard the
saying, 'there is more pleasure in giving than in receiving'?"

"Yes, I think I've heard it," said Mona, flippantly, "but I never saw any
sense in it.  There's lots of things said that ain't a bit true."

"This is true enough," said Lucy quietly, "and I hope you'll find it so
for yourself, or you will miss half the pleasure in life."

"Well, I don't believe in any of those old sayings," retorted Mona,
rising too.  "Anyway, receiving's good enough for me!" and she laughed
boisterously, thinking she had said something new and funny.

A little cloud rested for a moment on Lucy's face, but only for a moment.
"It isn't nice to hear you speak like that, Mona," she said quietly,
a note of pain in her voice, "but I can't make myself believe yet that you
are as selfish as you make out.  I believe," looking across at her
stepdaughter with kindly, smiling eyes, "that you've got as warm a heart
as anybody, really."

And at the words and the look all the flippant, silly don't-careishness
died out of Mona's thoughts and manner.

Yet, presently, when in her own little room again, she opened her little
blue purse and looked in it, a painful doubt arose in her mind.  It was
nice to be considered good-hearted, but was she really so?
And unselfish?  "If I was, wouldn't I make my last year's hat do?
Wouldn't I give back the eighteenpence?"  What tiresome questions they
were to come poking and pushing forward so persistently.  Anyhow, her
mother knew now that she wanted a hat, and she knew that she had the
money, and that she was going to spend it on herself--and yet she had
called her unselfish!

And downstairs, Lucy, with an anxious face, and a weight at her heart, was
thinking to herself, "If Mona had lived much longer the idle, selfish life
she has been living, her character would have been ruined, and there is so
much that is good in her!  Poor child, poor Mona!  She has never had a
fair chance yet to learn to show the best side of her, and I doubt if I'm
the one to teach her.  I couldn't be hard with her if I tried, and being
her stepmother will make things more difficult for me than for most.
I couldn't live in the house with strife.  I must try other means, and,"
she added softly, "ask God to help me."



CHAPTER IV.


For a while, after that talk with her mother, Mona worked with a will.
She swept, and scrubbed, and polished the stove and the windows and helped
with the washing and ironing, until Lucy laughingly declared there would
soon be nothing left for her to do.

"That's just what I want," declared Mona.  "I want you not to have
anything to do.  Perhaps I can't manage the cooking yet, but I'll learn to
in time."  Excited by the novelty and change, and buoyed up by the
prospect of her new hat, and new frocks and aprons too, she felt she could
do anything, and could not do enough in return for all that was to be done
for her, and, when Mona made up her mind to work, there were few who could
outdo her.  She would go on until she was ready to drop.

As the spring days grew warmer, she would get so exhausted that Lucy
sometimes had to interfere peremptorily, and make her stop.  "Now you sit
right down there, out of the draught, and don't you move a foot till I
give you leave.  I will get you a nice cup of tea, and one of my new
tarts; they're just this minute ready to come out of the oven."

A straight screen, reaching from floor to ceiling, stood at one side of
the door, to keep off some of the draught and to give some little privacy
to those who used the kitchen.  Mona dried her hands and slipped
gratefully into the chair that stood between the screen and the end of the
table.

"Oh, mother, this is nice," she sighed, her face radiant, though her
shoulders drooped a little with tiredness.

"Isn't it beautiful?  I love these sunny, quiet afternoons, when
everything is peaceful, and the sea quite calm."  Her eyes looked beyond
the little kitchen to the steep, sunny street outside, and beyond that
again to where the blue sea heaved and glittered in the distance.
The little window, as well as the door, stood wide open, letting in the
scent of the sun-warmed wallflowers, and box, and boy's love.
The bees buzzed contentedly over the beds.  One made his way in to Lucy's
plants in the window.

"I seem to smell the sea even through the scent of the flowers,"
said Lucy.

"I am sure I do.  I can't think how people can choose to live inland, can
you, mother?"

"I don't suppose they choose, they just live where God has seen fit to
place them--where their work lies."

"Well, I hope my work will always be in some place near the sea," said
Mona decidedly.  "I don't think I could live away from it."

Lucy smiled.  "I think you could, dear, if you made up your mind to it!
I am sure you are not a coward."

"I don't see that it has got anything to do with being a coward or not,"
objected Mona.

"But indeed it has.  If people can't face things they don't like without
grumbling all the time they are cowards.  It is as cruel and cowardly to
keep on grumbling and complaining about what you don't like as it is brave
to face it and act so that people never guess what your real feelings are.
Think of my mother now.  She loved living in a town, with all that there
is to see and hear and interest one, and, above all, she loved London.
It was home to her, and every other place was exile.  Yet when, after they
had been married a couple of years, her husband made up his mind to live
right away in the country, she never grumbled, though she must have felt
lonely and miserable many a time.  Her mother, and all belonging to her,
lived in London, and I know she had a perfect dread of the country.
She was afraid of the loneliness.  Then my father tried his hand at
farming and lost all his savings, and after that there was never a penny
for anything but the barest of food and clothing, and sometimes not enough
even for that.  Well, I am quite sure that no one ever heard a word of
complaint from mother's lips, and when poor father reproached himself,
as he did very often, with having brought ruin on her, she'd say,
'Tom, I married you for better or worse, for richer or poorer.  I didn't
marry you on condition you stayed always in one place and earned so much a
week.'"

"Mother didn't think she was being brave by always keeping a cheerful face
and a happy heart--but father did, and I do, now.  I understand things
better than I did.  I can see there's ever so much more bravery in denying
yourself day after day what you want, and bearing willingly what you don't
like, than there is in doing some big deed that you carry through on the
spur of the moment."

Mona sat silent, gazing out across the flowers in the window to the sky
beyond.  "There's ever so much more bravery in denying yourself what you
want."  The words rang in her head most annoyingly.  Could Lucy have
spoken them on purpose?  No, Mona honestly did not think that, but she
wished she had not uttered them.  She tried to think of something else,
and, unconsciously, her mother helped her.

"I want to go to see mother on Monday or Tuesday, if I can.  Do you think
you'll mind being left here alone for a few hours?"

Mona looked round at her with a smile.  "Why, of course not!  I used to
spend hours here alone.  I'll find plenty to do while you're gone.
I'll write to granny, for one thing.  I promised I would.  I could take up
some of the weeds in the garden, too."

She was eager to do something for her stepmother, so that she herself
would feel more easy in her mind about the one thing she could not summon
up courage to do.

"Yes, if you'll do a little weeding it'll be fine.  I'm ashamed to see our
path, and the wallflowers are nearly choked, but I daren't do it.
I can't stoop so long."

On Sunday Mona went to Sunday school for the first time, and was not a
little pleased to find that her last year's hat, with the daisy wreath,
was prettier than any other hat there.  With every admiring glance she
caught directed at it her spirits rose.  She loved to feel that she was
admired and envied.  It never entered her head that she made some of the
children feel mortified and discontented with their own things.

"If they think such a lot of this one, I wonder what they'll think of me
having another new one soon!"  To conceal the elation in her face,
she bent over her books, pretending to be absorbed in the lesson.
Miss Lester, the teacher, looked at her now and again with grave,
questioning eyes.  She was wondering anxiously if this little stranger was
going to bring to an end the peace and contentment of the class.
"Is she going to make my poor children realise how poor and shabby their
clothes are, and fill their heads with thoughts of dress?"  She said
nothing aloud, however.  She was only a little kinder, perhaps, to the
most shabby of them all.

Mona, who had been quite conscious of her teacher's glances, never doubted
but that they were glances of admiration, and was, in consequence,
extremely pleased.  She returned home quite elated by her Sunday
afternoon's experiences.

The next day, at about eleven, Lucy started on her three mile walk to her
mother's.

"Isn't it too far for you?" asked Mona, struck anew by her stepmother's
fragile appearance.  "Hadn't you better put it off till you're stronger?"

But Lucy shook her head.  "Oh, no, I shall manage it.  If I go to-day I
shall be able to have a lift home in Mr. Lobb's cart.  It's his day.
So I shall only have three miles to walk, and I do want to see mother.
She has been so bad again."

Mona did not try any more to stop her, but bustled around helping her to
get ready.  "If you hadn't been going to drive back, I'd have come to meet
you.  Never mind, I expect I'll be very busy," and she smiled to herself
at the thought of all she was going to do, and of the nice clean kitchen
and tempting meal she would have ready by the time Mr. Lobb's cart
deposited Lucy at the door again.

"Now, don't do too much, and tire yourself out, dear," said Lucy,
warningly.  "There isn't really much that needs doing," but Mona smiled
knowingly.

As soon as Lucy had really started and was out of sight, she washed and
put away the few cups and plates, and swept up the hearth.  Then, getting
a little garden fork and an old mat, she sallied forth to the garden.
There certainly were a good many weeds in the path, and, as the ground was
trodden hard, they were not easy to remove.  Those in the flower beds were
much easier.

"I'll do the beds first," thought Mona.  "After all, that's the right way
to begin."  So she dug away busily for some time, taking great care to dig
deep, and lift the roots right out.  "While I am about it, I may as well
turn all the earth over to make it nice and soft for the flowers.
I don't know how they ever manage to grow in such hard, caked old stuff,
poor little things."

Here and there a 'poor little thing' came up root and all, as well as the
weed, or instead of it, but Mona quickly put it back again, and here and
there one had its roots torn away and loosened.  In fact, most of Lucy's
plants found themselves wrenched from the cool, moist earth they loved,
and their hold on life gone.  Presently Mona came to a large patch of
forget-me-nots.  The flowers were not yet out, but there was plenty of
promise for by and by.  It was not, though, the promise of buds, nor the
plant itself which caused Mona to cease her work suddenly, and sit back on
her heels, lost in thought.

"I've a good mind to go down now this minute and get it," she exclaimed
eagerly, "while mother's away.  Buying a hat won't seem much if she hasn't
got to buy the trimmings.  And--and if--if I don't get the wreath,
Mr. Tamlin may--may sell it before mother goes there."

This fear made her spring from her knees.  Without any further hesitation,
she rushed, into the house, washed and tidied herself, got her blue purse
from the drawer in which it was still hidden, and in ten minutes from the
moment the thought first struck her she was hurrying down the street,
leaving the mat and the fork where she had been using them.  But she could
think of nothing.  Indeed, she could scarcely breathe for excitement until
she reached Tamlin's shop, and, to her enormous relief, saw the blue
wreaths still hanging there.

"Of course, it is much the best way to buy it now and take it home,"
Mona argued with herself.  "It will only get dirty and faded where it is."

She felt a little nervous at entering the big shop by herself, especially
as she seemed to be the only customer, and the attendants had no one else
at whom to stare.  She went up to the one who had the pleasantest smile
and looked the least grand of them all.

"Forget-me-nots?  Oh, yes, dear, we have some lovely flowers this season,
all new in.  Perhaps you'd prefer roses.  We have some beautiful roses,
pink, red, yellow, and white ones--and wreaths, we have some sweet
wreaths, moss and rose buds, and sweet peas and grasses."  She proceeded
to drag out great boxes full of roses of all shapes and kinds.
Mona looked at them without interest.  "No, thank you I want
forget-me-nots."

"Oh, well, there's no harm in looking at the others, is there?  I've got
some sweet marg'rites too.  I'll show you.  P'raps you'll change your mind
when you see them.  Blue ties you so, doesn't it?"

"I've got daisies on a hat already.  I'm tired of them.  I want something
different."

"Of course, we all like a change, don't we?  I'll show you a wreath--
perfectly sweet it is, apple-blossom and leaves; it might be real, it's so
perfect."  And away she went again for another box.

Mona felt as though her eighteenpence was shrivelling smaller and smaller.
It seemed such a ridiculously small sum to have come shopping with, and
she wished she had never done so.  The girl dropped a huge box on the
counter, and whipped the cover off.  She was panting a little from the
weight of it.  Mona longed to sink out of sight, she was so ashamed of the
trouble she was giving, and only eighteenpence to spend after all!

"There, isn't that sweet, and only three and eleven three."

But Mona was by this time feeling so ashamed and bothered and
uncomfortable, she would not bring herself to look at the flowers.
"Yes, thank you, it's very pretty, but--but--it's too dear--and--I want
forget-me-nots."

Then, summoning up all the courage she had left,  "You've got some wreaths
for one and fivepence three-farthings; it's one of those I want."

The girl's face changed, and her manner too.  "Oh, it's one of the cheap
wreaths you want, like we've got in the window," and from another box she
dragged out one of the kind Mona had gazed at so longingly, and, without
handing it to her to look at, popped it into a bag, screwed up the top,
and pushed it across the counter.  "One and five three," she snapped
rudely, and, while Mona was extracting her eighteenpence from her purse,
she turned to another attendant who had been standing looking on and
listening all the time.

"Miss Jones, dear, will you help me put all these boxes away."

Mona noticed the sneer in her voice, the glances the two exchanged.
She saw, too, Miss Jones's pitying smile and toss of her head, and she
walked out of the shop with burning cheeks and a bursting heart.
She longed passionately to throw down the wreath she carried and trample
on it--and as for Tamlin's shop!  She felt that nothing would ever induce
her to set foot inside it again.

Poor Mona, as she hurried up the street with her longed-for treasure--now
detestable in her eyes--all the sunshine and happiness seemed to have gone
out of her days.  She went along quickly, with her head down.  She felt
she did not want to see or speak to anyone just then.  She hurried through
the garden, where the patch of newly-turned earth was already drying under
the kiss of the sun, and the wallflowers were beginning to droop, but she
saw nothing of it all.  She only wanted to get inside and shut and bolt
the door, and be alone with herself and her anger.

"There!" she cried passionately, flinging the wreath across the kitchen,
"take that! I hate you--I hate the sight of you!"  She would have cried,
but that she had made up her mind that she would not.  "I'll never wear
the hateful thing--I couldn't!  If I was to meet that girl when I'd got it
on I--I'd never get over it!  And there's all my money gone; wasted, and--
and----"  At last the tears did come, in spite of her, and Mona's heart
felt relieved.

She picked out the paper bag from inside the fender, and, carrying it
upstairs, thrust it inside the lid of her box.  "There! and I hope I'll
never see the old thing ever any more, and then, p'raps, in time I'll
forget all about it."

As she went down the stairs again to the kitchen she remembered that her
father would be home in a few minutes to his dinner, and that she had to
boil some potatoes.  "Oh, dear--I wish--I wish----"  But what was the use
of wishing!  She had the forget-me-nots she had so longed for--and what
was the result!

"I'll never, never wish for anything again," she thought ruefully,
"but I suppose that wishing you'd got something, and wishing you
hadn't forgot something, are two different things, though both make you
feel miserable," she added gloomily.

For a moment she sat, overwhelmed by all that she had done and had left
undone.  The emptiness and silence of the house brought to her a sense of
loneliness.  The street outside was empty and silent too, except for two
old women who walked by with heavy, dragging steps.  One of the two was
talking in a patient, pathetic voice, but loudly, for her companion was
deaf.

"There's no cure for trouble like work, I know that.  I've had more'n my
share of trouble, and if it hadn't been that I'd got the children to care
for, and my work cut out to get 'em bread to eat, I'd have give in;
I couldn't have borne all I've had to bear----"

The words reached Mona distinctly through the silence.  She rose to her
feet.  "P'raps work'll help me to bear mine," she thought bitterly.
"When my man and my two boys was drowned that winter, I'd have gone out of
my mind if I hadn't had to work to keep a home for the others----"
The voices died away in the distance, and Mona's bitterness died away too.

"Her man, and her two boys--three of them dead, all drowned in one day--
oh, how awful!  How awful!"  Mona's face blanched at the thought of the
tragedy.  The very calmness with which it was told made it seem worse,
more real, more inevitable.  Even the sunshine and peace about her made it
seem more awful.  Compared with such a trouble, her own was too paltry.
It was not a trouble at all.  She felt ashamed of herself for the fuss she
had been making, and without more ado she bustled round to such good
purpose that when her father returned to his meal she had it all cooked
and ready to put on the table.

"That's a good maid," he said, encouragingly.  "Why, you've grown a
reg'lar handy little woman.  You'll be a grand help to your poor mother."

"I do want to be," said Mona, but she did not feel as confident about it
as her father did.  "I'm going to have everything ready for her by the
time she gets home."

"That's right, I shan't be home till morning, most likely, so you'll have
to take care of her.  She'll be fairly tired out, what with walking three
miles in the sun, and then being rattled about in Mr. Lobb's old cart.
The roads ain't fit for a horse to travel over."

"I should think she'd be here about six, shouldn't she, father?"

"Yes, that's about the old man's time, but there's no reckoning on him for
certain.  He may have to go a mile or more out of his way, just for one
customer."

Apparently that was what he had to do that day, for six came and went, and
seven o'clock had struck, and darkness had fallen before the cart drew up
at Cliff Cottage, and Lucy clambered stiffly down from her hard,
uncomfortable seat.

She was tired out and chilly, but at the sound of the wheels the cottage
door was flung open, letting out a wide stream of cheerfulness, which made
her heart glow and drove her weariness away.  Inside, the home all was
neat and cosy, the fire burned brightly, and the table was laid ready
for a meal.  Lucy drew a deep breath of happiness and relief.

"Oh, it is nice to get home again," she sighed contentedly, "and most of
all to find someone waiting for you, Mona dear."

And Mona's heart danced with pleasure and happy pride.  She felt well
repaid for all she had done.



CHAPTER V.


When Mona woke the next morning she felt vaguely that something was
missing.  "Why it's the smell of the wallflowers!" she cried, after lying
for some minutes wondering what it could be.  But in her new desire to get
dressed and downstairs early she did not give the matter another thought.

Lucy, coming down later, stepped to the door for a moment to breathe in
the sunshine and sweet morning air.  "Oh," she cried, and her voice rang
out sharply, full of dismay, "Oh, Mona, come quick.  Whatever has happened
to our wallflowers!  Why, look at them!  They are all dead!  Oh, the poor
things!  Someone must have pulled them up in sheer wickedness!  Isn't it
cruel?  Isn't it shameful!"

Mona, rushing to the door to look, found Lucy on her knees by the dying
plants, the tears dropping from her eyes.  Only yesterday they were so
happy and so beautiful, a rich carpet of brown, gold, tawny, and crimson,
all glowing in the sunshine, and filling the air with their glorious
scent--and now!  Oh, it was pitiful, pitiful.

"I'll fill a tub with water and plunge them all in," cried Lucy,
frantically collecting her poor favourites--then suddenly she dropped
them.  "No, no, I won't, I'll bury them out of sight.  I could never give
them new life.  Oh, who could have been so wicked?"

Mona was standing beside her, white-faced and silent.  At her mother's
last question, she opened her lips for the first time.  "I--I did it,"
she gasped in a horrified voice.  "I--didn't know, I must have done it
when I was weeding.  Oh, mother, I am so sorry.  What can I do--oh,
what can I do!"

"You!  Oh, Mona!"  But at the sight of Mona's distress Lucy forgot her
own.

"Never mind.  It can't be helped.  'Twas an accident, of course, and no
one can prevent accidents.  Don't fret about it, dear.  Of course,
you wouldn't have hurt them if you'd known what you were doing!"

But her words failed to comfort Mona, for in her inmost heart she knew
that she should have known better, that she could have helped it.
It was just carelessness again.

"They wouldn't have lasted more than a week or two longer, I expect,"
added Lucy, consolingly, trying to comfort herself as well as Mona.
"Now, we'll get this bed ready for the ten-weeks stocks.  It will do the
ground good to rest a bit.  I daresay the stocks will be all the finer for
it later on."  But still Mona was not consoled.

"If I hadn't run away and left them to go and buy that hateful wreath,"
she was thinking.  "If only I had remembered to press the earth tight
round them again--if--if only I'd been more careful when I was weeding,
and--if, if, if!  It's all ifs with me!"  Aloud, she said bitterly,
"I only seem to do harm to everything I touch.  I'd better give up!
If I don't do anything, p'raps I shan't do mischief."

Lucy laughed.  "Poor old Paddy," she cried.  "Why, you couldn't live and
not do anything.  Every minute of your life you are doing something, and
when you are doing what you call 'nothing' you will be doing mischief,
if it's only in setting a bad example.  And you can work splendidly if you
like, Mona, and you _do_ like, I know.  I shan't forget for a long while
how nice you'd got everything by the time I came home last night, and how
early you got up this morning."

Mona's face brightened.

"You've got to learn to think, that's all, dear; and to remember to finish
off one thing before you leave it to go to another.  It's just the want of
that that lies at the root of most of your trouble."

A sound of many feet hurrying along the street and of shouting voices made
Lucy break off suddenly, and sent them both running to the gate.

"Boats are in sight, missis.  Fine catch!" called one and another as they
hurried along.

Lucy and Mona looked at each other with glad relief in their eyes.
There had been no real cause for anxiety because the little fishing fleet
had not been home at dawn, yet now they knew that they had been a little
bit anxious, Lucy especially, and their pleasure was all the greater.
For a moment Mona, in her excitement, was for following the rest to the
quay where the fish would be landed.  It was so exciting, such fun, to be
in all the bustle of the unloading, and the selling--and to know that for
a time, at any rate, money would not be scarce, and rent and food and
firing would be secure.

Mona loved nothing better than such mornings as this--but her first step
was her last.  "I won't remember 'too late' this time," she said to
herself determinedly, and turning, she made her way quickly into the
house.  There would be more than enough to do to get ready.  There would
be hot water, dry clothes, and a hot breakfast to get for the tired, cold,
famished father.

"Now you sit down, mother, and stoke the fire, I'll see to the rest," and
for the next hour she flew around, doing one thing after another, and as
deftly as a woman.  She was so busy and so happy she forgot all about the
beach and the busy scene there, the excitement, and the fun.

But before Lucy did any 'stoking' she went out with a rake and smoothed
over the rough earth of the empty wallflower bed.  "If it's looking tidy,
perhaps he won't notice anything's wrong when he first comes home,"
she thought.  "When he's less tired he'll be able to bear the
disappointment better."  She knew that if he missed his flowers one of his
chief pleasures in his homecoming would be gone, and she almost dreaded to
hear the sound of his footsteps because of the disappointment in store for
him.  Because she could not bear to see it, she stayed in the kitchen,
and only Mona went out to meet him.  Lucy heard his loved voice, hoarse
and tired, but cheerful still.  "Hullo, my girl!" he cried, "how's mother,
and how 'ave 'ee got on?  I was 'fraid she'd be troubling.  Hullo!  Why,
what's happened to our wallflowers?"

At the sound of the dismay in his voice, Lucy had to go out.  "Poor Mona,"
she thought, "it's hard on her!  Why, father!" she cried brightly,
standing in the doorway with a glad face and happy welcome.  "We're so
glad to see you at last.  Make haste in, you must be tired to death, and
cold through and through.  Mona's got everything ready for you, as nice as
can be.  She's worked hard since we heard the boats were come.  We've all
got good appetites for our breakfast, I guess."

Then, in his pleasure at seeing his wife and child again, Peter Carne
forgot all about his flowers.  Putting his arms around them both, he gave
them each a hearty kiss, and all went in together.  "I ain't hardly fit
to," he said, laughing, "but you're looking as fresh and sweet as two
daisies this morning."

Diving his hand deep into his pocket, he drew out a handful of gold and
silver.  "Here, mother, here's something you'll be glad of!  Now, Mona, my
girl," as he dropped into his arm-chair, "where's my old slippers?"

Mona picked them up from the fender, where they had been warming, and,
kneeling down, she pulled off his heavy boots.  Once more she was filled
with the feeling that if she could only do something to make up for the
harm she had done she would not feel so bad.

"Thank'ee, little maid.  Oh, it's good to be home again!"  He leaned back
and stretched his tired limbs with a sigh of deep content.  "But I mustn't
stop here, I must go and have a wash, and change into dry things before I
have my breakfast.  I can tell you, I'm more than a bit hungry.  When I've
had it I've got to go down and clean out the boat."

"Oh, not till you've had a few hours' sleep," coaxed Lucy.  "You must have
some rest, father.  I've a good mind to turn the key on you."

Her husband laughed too.  "There's no need for locks and keys to-day,"
he said, ruefully.  "If I was to start out I believe I'd have to lie down
in the road and have a nap before I got to the bottom of the street.
I'll feel better when I've had a wash."

As he stumbled out of the kitchen Lucy picked up the coins lying on the
table, and put them in a little locked box in the cupboard.  Mona, coming
back into the kitchen from putting her father's sea-boots away, saw that
there seemed to be quite a large sum.

"Shall I have my new hat?" she wondered eagerly.  "There's plenty of money
now."  But Lucy only said, "I'll have to get wool to make some new
stockings for your father, and a jersey, and I'll have to go to Baymouth
to get it.  Mr. Tamlin doesn't keep the right sort.  Can you knit
stockings, Mona?"

"Ye--es, but I hate----"  She drew herself up sharply.  "Yes, I can, but
I'd rather scrub, or sweep, or--or anything."

"Never mind, I'll make them.  I'm fond of all that kind of work.
I'll have to be quick about the jersey, for I see that one he's got on has
a great hole in the elbow, and he's only got his best one besides.
I'd better go to Baymouth on Wednesday.  It won't do to put it off."

"I wish I could take you with me," she said to Mona regretfully when the
Wednesday came, and she was getting ready to start.  "I would, only your
father thinks he'll be back about tea-time, and he'll need a hot meal when
he comes.  Never mind, dear, you shall go next time."

"Oh--h--that's all right." Mona tried to speak cheerfully, but neither
face nor voice looked or sounded all right!  The thought uppermost in her
mind was that there was no chance of her having her new hat.  Her mother
could not get that unless she was there to try it on.

She saw her mother off, and she did try to be pleasant, but she could not
help a little aggrieved feeling at her heart.

"Granny would have bought me one before now," she said to herself.
She did really want not to have such thoughts.  She still felt mean and
uncomfortable about the wreath, and in her heart she knew that her
stepmother was kinder to her than she deserved.

When she had done the few things she had to do, and had had her dinner,
and changed her frock, she went out into the garden.  It would be less
lonely there, she thought, and she could weed the path a little.
She would never touch one of the flower beds again!  Before she had been
out there long, Millie Higgins came down the hill.  At the sight of Mona,
Millie drew up.  "So you ain't gone to Baymouth too?" she said, leaning
over the low stone wall, and evidently prepared for a talk.  "I saw your
mother starting off.  Why didn't she take you with her?  You'd have liked
to have gone, wouldn't you?"

"Yes," Mona admitted.

"Well, why didn't you?"

"Somebody had to be here to look after father.  He'll be home before
mother gets back."

Millie Higgins snorted sarcastically.  "Very nice for some people to be
able to go off and enjoy themselves and leave others to look after things
for them!  If I were you I'd say I'd like to go too."

Mona resented Millie's tone.  A sense of fairness rose within her too.
"If I'd said I wanted to go, I daresay I could have gone," she retorted
coldly.  "I'm going another time."

"Oh, are you?  Well, that's all right as long as you are satisfied,"
meaningly.  "Good-bye," and with a nod Millie took herself off.
But before she had gone more than a few paces she was back again.

"Come on out and play for a bit, won't you?"

"I'd like to," Mona hesitated, "but I don't know for certain what time
father'll get back."

"Well, I do!  I know they won't be home yet awhile.  They'll wait till the
tide serves.  Come along, Mona, you might as well come out and play for
half an hour as stick moping here.  You might spend all your life waiting
about for the old boats to come in, and never have a bit of pleasure if
you don't take it when you can.  We'll go down to the quay, then you'll be
able to see the boats coming.  After they're in sight there'll be heaps of
time to run home and get things ready."

The temptation was great, too great.  Mona loved the quay, and the life
and cheerfulness there.  Towards evening all the children in the place
congregated there, playing 'Last touch,' 'Hop-Scotch,' and all the rest of
the games they loved, to a chorus of shouts, and screams, and laughter.
Then there was the sea to look at too, so beautiful and grand, and
awe-inspiring in the fading light.  Oh, how dearly she loved it all!

In her ears Millie's words still rang: "You might spend all your life
waiting about for the old boats, and never have a bit of pleasure, if you
don't take it when you can."

"Wait a minute," she said eagerly, "I'll just put some coal on the fire
and get my hat."

She banked up a good fire, unhung her hat, and, pulling the door after
her, ran out to Millie again, "I'm ready now," she said excitedly.

When they arrived at the quay they received a very warm welcome; they were
just in time to take part in a game of 'Prisoners.'  After that they had
one of 'Tip,' and one or two of 'Hop-Scotch,' then 'Prisoners' again; and
how many more Mona could never remember, for she had lost count of time,
and everything but the fun, until she was suddenly brought to her senses
by a man's voice saying, "Well, it's time they were in, the clock struck
seven ten minutes agone."

"Seven!" Mona was thunderstruck.  "Did you say seven?" she gasped, and
scarcely waiting for an answer she took to her heels and tore up the
street to her home.  Her mind was full of troubled thoughts.  The fire
would be out, the house all in darkness.  She had only pulled the front
door behind her, she had not locked it.  Oh, dear! what a number of things
she had left undone!  What a muddle she had made of things.  When, as she
drew near the house, she saw a light shining from the kitchen window, her
heart sank lower than ever it had done before.

"Father must have come!  Oh! and me not there, and--and nothing ready.
Oh, I wouldn't have had it happen for anything."  She rushed up to the
house so fast and burst into the kitchen so violently that her mother, who
was sitting in her chair, apparently lost in thought, sprang up in alarm.

"Oh, Mona! it's you!  You frightened me so, child.  Where's your father,"
she asked anxiously.  "Haven't you seen him?"

"No, he hasn't come yet."

Lucy's face grew as white as a lily.  Her eyes were full of terror, which
always haunted her.  "P'raps he came home while you were out, and went out
again when he found the house empty."

"He couldn't.  I've been on the quay all the time.  The boats couldn't
have come in without my seeing them.  I was waiting for him.  Everybody
was saying how late they were.  They couldn't think why."

"Yes--they are dreadfully late--but I--I didn't think you'd have gone out
and left the house while I was away," said Lucy with gentle reproach.
"But, as you did, you should have locked the door behind you.  I s'pose
Mr. King called before you left?"

"He hasn't been," faltered Mona, her heart giving a great throb.  She had
entirely forgotten that the landlord's agent was coming for his rent that
afternoon.  "The money's on the dresser.  I put it there."

"Is it? I couldn't see it.  I looked for it at once when I found the door
wide open and nobody here."

"Open!  I shut it after me.  I didn't lock it, but I pulled the door fast
after me.  You can't have looked in the right place, mother.  I put it by
the brown jug."  And, never doubting but that her mother had overlooked
it, Mona searched the dressers herself.  But there was no money on them,
not even a farthing for the baker.  "But I put it there!  I put it there
myself!" she kept repeating more and more frantically.  She got upon a
chair and searched every inch of every shelf, and turned every jug and cup
upside down.  "It _must_ be somewhere."

"Yes, somewhere!  But it isn't here, and it isn't in Mr. King's pocket."
Poor Lucy sank back in her chair looking ready to faint.  Five shillings
meant much to her.  It was so horrible, too, to feel that a thief had been
in, and had perhaps gone all over the house.  Who could say what more he
had taken, or what mischief he had done.

She was disappointed also in her trust in Mona, and she was tired and
faint from want of food.  All her pleasure in her day and in her
homecoming was gone, changed to worry and weariness and disappointment.

"But who can have been so wicked as to take it!" cried Mona passionately.
"Nobody had any right to open our door and come into our house.
It's hard to think one can't go out for a few minutes but what somebody
must come and act dishonest----"

"We can't talk about others not doing right if we don't do right
ourselves!  Your father and I left you here in charge, and you undertook
the charge.  We trusted you."

Mona got down from the chair.  "It's very hard if I can't ever go
anywhere--I only went for a little while.  Millie said father wouldn't be
here--the boats weren't in sight.  And you see she was right!  They are
ever so late."

"Well, I suppose we are all made differently, but I couldn't have played
games knowing that the boats ought to have been in, and not knowing what
might have happened to my father."

"I get tired of always sticking around, waiting on the old boats.  I never
thought of there being any danger, they're so often late.  It was only
towards the end that people came down looking for them and wondering."

Lucy groaned.  "Well, I'm thankful you don't suffer as I do, child.
P'raps I'm foolish, but I'm terrified of the sea, and I never get
accustomed to the danger of it."  And she looked so white and wan, Mona's
heart was touched, and some of the sullenness died out of her face and
voice.

"I never thought--there was only a little wind," she began, when a sharp
rap at the door interrupted her, then the latch was raised, and the door
opened briskly.  "Boats are in sight, Mrs. Carne! and all's well!" cried a
voice cheerfully, and old Job Maunders popped his grizzled head round the
screen.  "I thought you might be troubling, ma'am, so I just popped 'fore
to tell 'ee.  I'm off down to see if I can lend a hand."

And before Lucy could thank him, the kindly old man was hurrying away
through the garden and down the street.

But what changed feelings he had left behind him!  Tired though she was,
Lucy was on her feet in a moment and her face radiant.  "Come, dear, we've
got to bustle round now for a bit.  You run and get some sticks and make a
good fire, and I'll get out his clean, dry things.  Then while I'm cooking
the supper you can be laying the cloth."

While she spoke she was gathering up a lot of parcels which were lying
scattered over the table.

"I'm longing to show you what I've bought."

"Yes," thought Mona, "and I am longing to see!"

"I wonder if you'll like what I've chosen for you."

"I wonder, too!" thought Mona.

"We'll have a good look at everything when we've had supper.  Then we
needn't be hurrying and scurrying all the time, and there'll be more
room."

In spite of the upset to her feelings, Mona was interested, but all real
pleasure was gone.  She knew that probably there was something for her in
one of the fat parcels, but the thought of taking any more kindness from
Lucy, to whom she had behaved so badly, was painful.  She wanted, instead,
to make amends to replace the lost five shillings.  She longed to have the
money to pay back, but she had not one penny!  All she could do was to
work, and to go without things she wanted.  She could do the first better
than the last, and she would rather.  She did not really mind working,
but she did mind denying herself things she had set her heart on.
"But I will, I will," she thought to herself while the shock of the theft
was still on her.

Before very long the fire was burning brightly, the kettle was beginning
to sing, and Lucy was cooking the sausages and bacon she had brought back
with her from Baymouth.  The savoury smell of them wafted through the
kitchen and reached the hungry, weary man trudging heavily up the garden.
Then Mona caught the sound of his coming, and rushed out, while Lucy stood
behind her with radiant face and glowing eyes.

"You must be chilled to the bone, and dead beat," she cried.  "Ain't you,
father?"

"I thought I was--but I ain't now.  It's worth everything just for the
pleasure of coming back to a home like mine, my girl."



CHAPTER VI.


Mona was growing more and more impatient.  "Grown-ups do take so long over
everything," she thought irritably.  "If it gets much later mother will
say, 'there isn't time to open the parcels to-night, we must wait till
morning!'  Oh, dear!"

It was long past eight before they had sat down to their meal, and then,
her father and mother both being very tired, they took it in such a
leisurely fashion that Mona thought they never would have finished.
They, of course, were glad to sit still and talk of their day's doings,
but Mona, as soon as her hunger was satisfied, was simply longing to be up
and examining the contents of the tempting-looking parcels which had
waited so long on the side-table.

She fidgeted with her knife and fork, she rattled her cup and shuffled
her feet, but still her father went on describing his adventures,
and still Lucy sat listening eagerly.  To them this was the happiest and
most restful time of the day.  The day's work was done, duty would not
call to them again until morning.  The kitchen was warm and comfortable.
It was just the right time for a leisurely talk, but Mona did not realise
this.

At last, disturbed by her restlessness, her mother and father broke off
their talk and got up from the table.

"Now you have a pipe, father, while Mona and I put away the supper things.
After that I'll be able to sit down and hear the rest of it.  I expect
Mona's tired and wants to be off to bed."

"No, I am not," said Mona sharply.  In her heart she grumbled, "Work,
work, always work--never a bit of fun."  She had forgotten the hours she
had spent playing on the quay only a little while before.  She would not
remind her mother of the parcels, but sulked because she had forgotten
them.  Lucy looked at her anxiously now and again, puzzled to know why her
mood had changed so suddenly.  She was still puzzling over the matter,
when, in putting something back on the side-table, she saw the pile of
parcels.

"Why, Mona," she cried, "I'd forgot all about my shopping, and the things
I was going to show you.  Make haste and dry your hands and come and look.
We'll be able to have a nice, quiet little time now before we go to bed!"

Mona's face changed at once, and her whole manner too.  It did not take
her long after that to finish up and be ready.

"That," said Lucy, putting one big roll aside, "that's the blue wool for
father.  We needn't open that now.  Oh, and this, is for you, dear,"
pushing a big box towards Mona.  "I hope you will like it.  I thought it
sweetly pretty.  Directly I saw it I thought to myself, now that'll just
suit our Mona!  I seemed to see you wearing it."

Mona's heart beat faster, her cheeks grew rosy with excitement.
"Whatever can it be!" she wondered, and her fingers trembled so with
eagerness, she was ever so long untying the string.

"If you don't like it," went on Lucy, busy untying the knots of another
parcel, "Mr. Phillips promised he'd change it, if it wasn't damaged at
all."

How tantalising Lucy was!  Whatever could it be!  Then at last the knot
gave way, and Mona lifted the lid, and pushed the silver paper aside.
"Oh, mother!"  She clapped her hands in a rapture, her eyes sparkled with
joy.  "Oh, mother!  It's--it's lovely.  I didn't know, I didn't think you
could get me a hat to-day--oh--h!"

"Then you like it?"

"It's lovely!"

"Try it on, and let us see if it suits you.  That's the chief thing, isn't
it?"  Lucy tried to look grave, but she was nearly as excited and
delighted as Mona herself.

Mona put it on and looked at her mother with shy questioning.  She hoped
so much that it did suit her, for she longed to keep it.

Lucy gazed at her critically from all sides, then she nodded with grave
approval.  "Yes, I never saw you in one that suited you better, to my
mind.  Go and see for yourself--but wait a minute," as Mona was hurrying
away to the scullery, where hung a little mirror about a foot square.
"Don't treat that poor box so badly," as she rescued it from the floor,
"there's something else in amongst all that paper.  Look again."

Mona opened the box again, but her heart had sunk suddenly.  Yes, there it
was, the very thing she had dreaded to see--a wreath of blue
forget-me-nots and soft green leaves!  There was a piece of black ribbon
velvet too, to make the whole complete.

It was a charming wreath.  Compared with it, her own purchase seemed poor
and common.

Mona held it in her hand, gazing at it with lowered lids.  Then suddenly
her eyes filled with tears.  "Oh, mother," she stammered brokenly.
There was such real pain in her voice that Lucy looked at her in anxious
surprise.  "Don't you like it?" she asked, disappointed.  She had hoped
for a rapturous outburst of pleasure, and, instead, Mona stood silent,
embarrassed, evidently on the verge of tears.

"Don't you like it, dear?" she asked again.  "I thought you would have
been pleased.  The blue on that silvery white straw looks so pretty,
I think.  Don't you?"

Mona nodded, but did not speak.  "Mona, dear, what is it?  Tell me what's
wrong?  I am sure there is something.  Perhaps I can help you, if I know."

Tears had been near Mona's eyes for some moments, and the kindness in her
mother's face and voice broke down all restraints.  Tossing the hat one
way and the wreath another, Mona ran into Lucy's arms, sobbing bitterly.

"Oh--I must tell.  I can't keep it in any longer!  Oh, mother, I've got a
wreath already, I bought it myself, and I hate it--oh, I hate it!
I--I can't tell you how bad I've felt about it ever since I got it!"
And then the whole of the miserable story came pouring out.  She kept
nothing back.  She told of her keeping the eighteenpence, of her dream, of
her mortification in the shop.  "And--and it seemed as if my dream came
true," she said, when presently the worst was told.  "I was so crazy for
the forget-me-nots that I couldn't get, that I never thought anything of
the wallflowers close beside me, and then, when I had got forget-me-nots,
I was disappointed; and when I lost the wallflowers, I began to think all
the world of them!"

Lucy, with her head resting against Mona's, as she held her in her arms,
smiled sadly.  "It's the same with all of us, dear.  We're so busy looking
into our neighbour's garden patch, envying them what they've got, that we
don't see what we've got in our own, and, as like as not, trample it down
with reaching up to look over the wall, and lose it altogether.  Now, pick
up your hat and your flowers and try to get all the pleasure you can out
of them.  I hoped they'd have brought you such a lot.  Or would you rather
change the wreath for another?"

But Mona would not hear of that.  "Oh, no, I wanted blue forget-me-nots,
and these are lovely.  I'd rather have them than anything, thank you,
mother."

"You couldn't have anything prettier," said Peter Carne, rousing suddenly
from his nap.

Lucy laughed.  "Now, father, whatever do you know about it!  You go to
sleep again.  Mona and I are talking about finery."  She was busy undoing
a large parcel of drapery.  "I've got the print here for your frocks,"
she turned to Mona again.  "I'd have liked to have had both dark blue,
but I thought you might fancy a pink one, so I got stuff for one of each.
There, do you like them?"

"Like them!  Oh, mother, are they really both for me!  And what pretty
buttons!  Are those for me, too?"

"Yes, it's all for you, dear."  Lucy's voice had begun to sound tired and
faint.  She had had a long, wearying day, and the parcels had been heavy.
Mona, though, did not notice anything.  She was busy arranging the wreath
round the crown of her hat.  "If I only had a white dress, wouldn't it
look nice with this!  Oh, I'd love to have a white dress.  If I'd stayed
with granny, she was going to get me one this summer."

Her father turned and looked across at them.  "What've you bought for
yourself, Lucy, my girl?" he asked suddenly.  Lucy looked up in surprise.
"I--oh, I didn't want anything, father," she said, somewhat embarrassed.
"I don't need anything new this summer.  My dove-colour merino is as good
as it was the day I bought it.  It seems foolish to--to buy new when one
doesn't need it," she added hastily.  "It is only a trouble to keep."

"Do you mean the one you were married in?" asked Peter shrewdly.

Lucy nodded.  "Yes--the one you liked.  I'll get myself a new pair of
gloves.  I can get those at Tamlin's."

"Um!" There was a deal of meaning in Peter Carne's 'Um.'  "Well, you'll
never get one that's prettier, but you ought to have something new and
nice, too.  And what about your medicine?"

"Oh!"  Lucy coloured.  "Oh, I--I'm trying to do without it.  It isn't good
for anyone to be taking it too often."

"That's what granny always says," chimed in Mona.  "She says if people get
into the way of taking medicine they get to think they can't do without
it."

Lucy's pale cheeks flushed pink, and a hurt look crept into her eyes.
Her husband was deeply annoyed, and showed it.  "I think, my girl,"
he said, in a sterner voice than Mona had ever heard before, "you'd better
wait to offer your opinion until you are old enough to know what you are
talking about.  You are more than old enough, though, to know that it's
wrong to repeat what's said before you.  After all your mother's bought
for you, too, I'd have thought," he broke off, for Mona's eyes were once
more full of tears.  Never in her life before had her father spoken to her
so severely.

"I--I didn't mean any harm," she stammered, apologetically.

"Then you should learn to think, and not say things that may do harm.
If what's on your tongue to say is likely to hurt anybody's feelings, or
to make mischief, then don't let it slip past your tongue.  You'll get on
if you keep that rule in your mind."

Lucy put her arm round her little stepdaughter, and drew her close.
"I know that our Mona wouldn't hurt me wilfully," she said kindly.
"She's got too warm a heart."

Peter Carne patted Mona's shoulder tenderly.  "I know--I know she has.
We've all got to learn and you can't know things unless they are pointed
out to you.  I'm always thankful to them that helped me in that way when I
was young.  Mona'll be glad, too, some day."

"Grown-ups always say things like that," thought Mona, wistfully.  She did
not feel at all glad then.  In fact, she felt so ashamed and so mortified,
she thought gladness could never enter into her life again.

It did come, though, for the hurt was not as deep as she thought.  It came
the next day when her mother trimmed the new hat.  Lucy had good taste,
and when living at the Grange she had often helped the young ladies with
their millinery.

"If I put the velvet bow just where the wreath joins, and let the ends
hang just ever so little over the edge of the brim, I think it'll look
nice and a little bit out of the common.  Don't you, dear?"  She held up
the hat to show off the effect.  Mona thought it was lovely.

"Then, as soon as ever I can I'll cut out your dresses, and, if you'll
help me with the housework, I'll make them myself.  It won't take me so
very long, with my machine."

She spoke of it so lightly that Mona did not realise in the least what the
fatigue of it would be to her.

"Oh, I'll do everything," she said, cheerfully.  "You leave everything to
me, mother, and only do your sewing, I can manage."

And she did manage, and well, too, in the intervals of trying on, and
admiring, and watching the frocks growing into shape and beauty under
Lucy's hands.  They were quite plain little frocks, but in Mona's eyes
they were lovely.  She could not decide which of them she liked best.

Lucy finished off the pink one first, and as soon as it was completed Mona
took it upstairs and put it on.  New dresses very seldom came her way, and
she was in a great state of excitement.  She had never in her life before
had one that she might put on on a week day and wear all day long.
As a rule, one had to wait for Sunday, and then the frock might only be
worn for a few hours, if the weather was fine, and as soon as ever church
and Sunday school were over it had to be changed.

"Doesn't it look nice!" she cried, delightedly, running downstairs to show
her mother.  "And it fits me like a glove!"  Her cheeks were almost as
pink as her gown.  Her blue eyes glowed with pleasure.  She looked like a
pretty pink blossom as she stood with the sunshine pouring in on her.

Lucy smiled at the compliment to her skill.  "You do look nice, dear."

Holding out her crisp, pink skirt, Mona danced gaily round the kitchen,
the breeze blowing in at the open door ruffled her hair a little.
She drew herself up, breathless, and glanced out.  Everything certainly
looked very tempting out of doors.  She longed to go and have a run,
the breeze and the sunshine seemed to be calling her.  She scarcely liked,
though, to leave her mother, tired as she was, and still busy at the blue
frock.

While she was standing looking out, her father appeared at the gate,
a letter in his hand.  He came up the path reading it.  When he came to
the porch he looked up and saw Mona.

"Oh, my!  How smart we are!"

"Do you like it, father?  Isn't it pretty?"

"Fine!  And now I s'pose you're longing to go out and show it off!"
He laughed, and pinched her cheeks.  Mona felt quite guilty at his quick
reading of her thoughts, but before she could reply he went on, more
gravely, "I've got a letter from your grandmother.  She sends her love to
you."  He went inside and put the letter down on the table before Lucy.

"She doesn't seem very well," he said, with a pucker on his brow, "and she
complains of being lonely.  I'm very glad she's got nice neighbours handy.
They'd be sure to run in and see her, and look after her a bit if she's
bad.  I shouldn't like to feel she was ailing, and all alone."

Mona's face dropped, and her heart too.  She felt horribly guilty.
"Would Mrs. Lane go in and sit with her for company?  Would she look after
her if she was bad?  Had they made up their quarrel?" she wondered,
"or were they still not on speaking terms?"  She did not know whether to
tell her father of the quarrel or not, so she said nothing.

Lucy had been busy trying to frame an excuse for sending Mona out.
She knew she was longing to go.

"Mona," she said, when at last they had finished discussing the letter and
its contents, "would you like to go down to Mr. Henders' for some tea and
sugar, and go on to Dr. Edwards for my medicine?  He said it would be
ready whenever anyone could come for it."

Mona beamed with pleasure.  "I'll go and put on my hat and boots now this
minute," and within ten she was ready, and walking, basket in hand, and
very self-conscious, down the hill to the shops.

The church clock struck twelve as she reached the doctor's.  In a few
minutes the children would all be pouring out of school, and wouldn't they
stare when they saw her!  She felt almost shy at the thought of facing
them, and gladly turned into Mr. Henders' out of their way.  She would
dawdle about in there, she told herself, until most of them had gone by.

She did dawdle about until Mrs. Henders asked her twice if there was
anything more that she wanted, and, as she could not pretend that there
was, she had to step out and face the world again.  Fortunately, though,
only the older and sedater girls were to be seen.  Philippa Luxmore and
Patty Row, each carrying her dinner bag, Winnie Maunders, and Kitty
Johnson, and one or two Mona did not know to speak to.

Philippa and Patty always brought their dinner with them, as the school
was rather far from their homes.  Sometimes they had their meal in the
schoolroom, but, if the weather was warm and dry, they liked best to eat
it out of doors, down on the rocks, or in a field by the school.

When they caught sight of Mona they rushed up to her eagerly.  "Oh, my!
How nice you look, Mona.  What a pretty frock!  It's new, isn't it?
Are you going to wear it every day or only on Sundays?"

"Oh, every day." Mona spoke in a lofty tone.  "It's only one of my working
frocks.  I've got two.  The other's a blue one.  Mother's made them for
me."

"Um! Your mother is good to you, Mona Carne!  I wish I'd got frocks like
that for working in.  I'd be glad to have them for Sundays.  Where are you
going?"

"Home."

"Oh, don't go home yet.  Patty and me are going down to eat our dinner on
the rocks.  Come on down too.  You won't hurt your frock."

"I don't think I can stay--I ought to go back.  I've got mother's medicine
here.  It's getting on for dinner-time, too, and father's home to-day."
Glancing up the road, she caught sight of Millie Higgins and another girl
in the distance.  She particularly did not want to meet Millie just then.
She made such rude remarks, and she always fingered things so.  Mona had
not forgiven her either for leading her astray the day her mother went
into Baymouth.

She hesitated a moment and was lost.  She turned and walked away from her
home.  Philippa slipped her arm through hers on one side, and Patty on the
other, and almost before she knew where she was she was racing with them
to the shore.

The wind had risen somewhat, so it took them some minutes to find a nice
sheltered spot in the sunshine and out of the wind, and they had to sit on
the land side of the rocks, with their backs to the sea.  It was very
pleasant, though, and, once settled, Mona told them all about her new hat,
and they gave her a share of their dinner.

After that they told her of the new summer frocks they were to have, and
the conversation grew so interesting and absorbing, they forgot everything
else until the church clock struck two!

With a howl of dismay, they all sprang to their feet, and then they howled
again, and even more loudly.

"Oh, Mona, look!  The tide's right in!  We'll have to get back through the
fields, and, oh, shan't we be late!"  Patty and Philippa began to scramble
back as fast as ever they could.  "Good-bye," they called over their
shoulders.  "Oh, Mona, look out for your basket, it's floating."

They could not have stayed to help her, but it did seem heartless of them
to run away and leave her alone to manage as best she could.
Mona looked about her helplessly, her heart sinking right down, down.
The tide at that point had a way of creeping up gently, stealthily, and
then, with one big swirl would rush right in and around the group of rocks
on which she stood.  If the wind was high and the sea at all rough, as
likely as not it would sweep right over the rocks and back again with such
force that anyone or anything on them was swept away with it.  There was
not wind enough to-day for that.  At least, Mona herself was safe, but her
basket!--already that was swamped with water.  At the thought of the
ruined tea and sugar her eyes filled.  Her mother's medicine was in the
basket too.  She would save that!  At any rate, she would feel less guilty
and ashamed if she could take that back to her.  She made a dash to seize
the basket before the next wave caught it, slipped on the slimy rock, and
fell face forward--and at the same moment she heard the crash of breaking
glass.  The medicine was mingling with the waves, the basket was riding
out on the crest of them!

Poor Mona!  At that minute the hardest heart would have felt sorry for
her.  Her dress was ruined, her hands were scraped and cut, her mother's
tonic was gone!  The misery which filled her heart was more than she could
bear.  "I can't go home!" she sobbed.  "I can't, I never can any more."
Big sobs shook her, tears poured down her cheeks.  "I can't go home,
I can't face them.  Oh, what shall I do!  What shall I do!"  She looked
down over her wet, green-slimed frock, so pretty and fresh but an hour
ago, and her sobs broke out again.  "I'll--I'll run away--they won't want
me after this, but p'raps they'll be sorry for me when they miss me.
Oh, I wish I'd never come, I wish I'd never met Phil and Patty--they'd no
business to ask me to come with them--it was too bad of them.  I wish I'd
gone straight home.  If it hadn't been for Millie Higgins I should have,
and all this would have been saved.  Oh, what shall I do?"

As there was no one but a few gulls to advise her, she received no
comfort, and had, after all, to settle the question for herself.

For a few moments all she did was to cry.  Then, "I'll go to granny," she
decided.  "She'll be glad to have me, and she won't scold.  Yes, I'll go
to granny.  Father and mother will be glad to be rid of me--I--I'm nothing
but a trouble to them!"  But, all the same, she felt so sorry for herself
she could scarcely see where she was going for the tears which blinded
her.



CHAPTER VII.


Mona's first thought was to avoid being seen by anyone who would recognise
her; her second--that she must keep out of sight as much as possible until
her dress was dry, and her face less disfigured, for anyone meeting her
now would stop her to enquire if she had met with an accident.

By keeping along the shore for some little distance it was possible to get
out on to the high road to Milbrook, but it was not an easy path to
travel.  It meant continued climbing over rocks, ploughing through loose,
soft sand, or heavy wet sand, clinging to the face of a cliff and
scrambling along it, or wading through deep water.

What her new pink frock would be like by the time she reached the road
Mona did not care to contemplate.  "It will be ruined for ever--
the first time of wearing, too," and a sob caught in her throat as she
remembered how her mother had toiled to get the material, and then to make
the dress.  Now that she was losing her she realised how much she had
grown to love her mother in the short time she had lived with her, and how
good and kind Lucy had been.  It never occurred to her that she was
doubling her mother's trouble by running away in this cowardly fashion.
Indeed, she would have been immensely surprised if anyone had hinted at
such a thing.  She was convinced that she was doing something very heroic
and self-denying; and the more she hurt herself clambering over the rough
roads, the more heroic and brave she thought herself.  And when, at last,
she stepped out on the high road, and realised that she had seven miles to
walk to her grandmother's house, she thought herself bravest of all,
a perfect heroine, in fact.

Already she was feeling hungry, for breakfast had been early, and Patty
and Philippa had only been able to spare her a slice of bread and butter
and a biscuit.

On she trudged, and on, and on.  A distant clock struck three, and just at
the same moment she passed a sign-post with 'Milbrook, 6 miles,' painted
on one arm of it, and 'Seacombe, 1 mile,' on another.

"Then she had six long tiresome miles to walk before she could get a
meal!" she thought.  "If she did not get on faster than she was doing,
it would be dark night before she reached Hillside Cottage, and granny
would be gone to bed.  She always went to bed as soon as daylight began to
go.  How frightened she would be at being called up to let Mona in!"

The thought quickened her steps a little, and she covered the next mile in
good time.  She ran down the hills, and trotted briskly along the level.
She got on faster in that way, but she very soon felt too tired to
continue.  Her legs ached so badly she had no heart left for running.
Now and again she leaned back against the hedge for a little rest, and oh,
how she did wish that it was the blackberry season!  She was starving, or
felt as though she was.

By and by, when she had quite despaired of ever reaching granny's that
night, she caught sight of a cart lumbering along in the distance, and a
man sitting up in it driving.  It was the first sight of a human being
that she had seen since she started, and she welcomed it gladly.
"Perhaps it's going my way, and will give me a lift."

The thought so cheered her that she went back a little way to meet the
cart.  When she drew nearer she saw that it was a market cart, and that
the driver was a kindly-looking elderly man.  Every now and again he
talked encouragingly to his horse to quicken its pace.  Between whiles he
sang snatches of a hymn in a loud, rolling bass.

As soon as he saw that Mona was waiting to speak to him, he stopped his
singing and drew up the horse.

"Good evening, missie," he said civilly.  "Are you wanting a lift?"

"Oh, please--I wondered if you would--I am so tired I can hardly walk."

"Um!  Where were you thinking of going?"

"To Hillside----"

"Um!  You've got a brave step to go yet.  We're a good three miles from
Hillside.  Have 'ee come far?"

"From Seacombe," Mona admitted reluctantly.

"My word!  It's a brave long walk for a young thing like you to take
alone.  Why, you wouldn't reach Hillside till after dark--not at the rate
you could go.  You look tired out already."

"I am," sighed Mona, pathetically.

"Here, jump up quick, or my old nag'll fall asleep, and I'll have the
works of the world to wake un up again."

Mona laughed.  "Thank you," she said, eyes and voice full of gratitude as
she clambered up the wheel, and perched herself on the high, hard seat
beside her new friend.  "I'm very much obliged to you, sir.  I don't
believe I'd ever have got there, walking all the way.  I didn't know seven
miles was so far."

"I don't believe you would.  A mile seems like two when you ain't in good
trim for it, and the more miles you walk, the longer they seem.
Gee up, you old rogue you!"  This to the horse, who, after much coaxing,
had consented to move on again.

"I never felt so tired in all my life before," sighed Mona, in a voice so
faint and weary that her companion looked at her sharply.

"Had any dinner?" he asked.

Mona shook her head.  "No, I--I missed my dinner.  I--I came away in a
hurry."

"That's always a bad plan."  He stooped down and pulled a straw bag
towards him.  "I couldn't eat all mine.  My wife was too generous to me.
P'raps you could help me out with it.  I don't like to take any home--it
kind of hurts my wife's feelings if I do.  She thinks I'm ill, too.
Can you finish up what's left?"

He unrolled a clean white cloth and laid it and its contents on Mona's
lap.

"Could she!"  Mona's eyes answered for her.

"Do you like bread and ham?  It may be a trifle thick----"

"Oh!" gasped Mona, "I think bread and ham, _thick_ bread and ham is nicer
than anything else in the world!"

"Um! Peg away, then.  And there's an orange, in case you're thirsty."

"Oh, you are kind!" cried Mona, gratefully.  "And oh, I am so glad I met
you, I don't believe I'd have got much further, I was feeling so faint."

"That was from want of food.  Here, before you begin, hadn't you better
put something about your shoulders.  It's getting fresh now the sun's gone
down, and when we get to the top of that hill we shall feel it.  Have you
got a coat, or a shawl, or something?"

"No, I haven't.  I--I came away in a hurry--but I shall be all right.
I don't mind the cold."

"I should think you were in too much of a hurry--to have forget your
shawl, and your dinner, too.  Wasn't there anybody to look after you,
and see you started out properly?"

"No."

"You ain't an orphan, are you?"

"Oh, no, I've got a father and a stepmother----"

"Oh-h!" meaningly.  "Is that the trouble?"

Mona fired up at once in defence of Lucy.  "No, it isn't.  She's just the
same as my own mother.  She's so kind to me--if she hadn't been so kind
I--I wouldn't have minded so much.  She sat up last night to--to finish
making my frock for me."  Her words caught in her throat, and she could
say no more.

Her companion eyed first her disfigured face, and then her bedraggled
frock.  "It seems to have seen trouble since last night, don't it?" he
remarked drily, and then the words and the sobs in Mona's throat poured
out together.

"That's why--I--I'm here.  I can't go home and show her what I've done.
It was so pretty only this morning--and now----"  Then bit by bit
Mona poured forth her tale of woe into the ears of the kindly stranger,
and Mr. Dodds sat and listened patiently, thoughtfully.

"And what about your poor father and mother and their feelings," he asked
when Mona had done.

"Oh--oh--they'll be glad to be rid of me.  They'll be better without me,"
said Mona, with the air and voice of a martyr.

"Um!  If you're certain sure of that, all well and good, but wouldn't it
have been better to have went back and asked them?  It does seem a bit
hard that they should be made to suffer more 'cause they've suffered so
much already.  They won't know but what you've been carried out to sea
'long with your poor mother's tonic."

Mona did not reply.  In her inmost heart she knew that he was right,
but she hadn't the courage to face the truth.  It was easier, too, to go
on than to go back, and granny would be glad to see her.  She would be
sorry for her, and would make much of her.  Granny always thought that all
she did was right.

In spite of her feelings, though, Mona finished her meal, and felt much
better for it, but she presently grew so sleepy she could not talk and
could scarcely keep on her seat.  Mr. Dodds noticed the curly head sink
down lower and lower, then start up again with a jerk, then droop again.

"Look here--what's your name, my dear?"

"Mona--Carne," said Mona, sleepily, quite oblivious of the fact that she
had given away her identity.

"Well, Mona, what I was going to say was, you'll be tumbling off your seat
and find yourself under the wheel before you know where you are; so I'd
advise you to get behind there, and curl down into the straw.  Then, if
you draw my top-coat over you, you'll be safe and warm both."

Mona needed no second bidding.  She almost tumbled into the clean,
sweet-smelling straw.  "Thank you," she was going to say, as she drew the
coat up over her, but she only got as far as 'thank,' and it seemed to her
that before she could say 'you,' she was roused again by the cart drawing
up, and there she was at her grandmother's gate, with granny standing on
the doorstep peering out into the dimness.  She thought she had closed her
eyes for only a minute, and in that minute they had travelled three miles.

"Is that you, Mr. Dodds?"  Granny called out sharply.  "Whatever made 'ee
come at this time of night?  'Tis time your poor 'orse was 'ome in his
stable, and you in your own house!"

"I've come on purpose to bring you something very valuable, Mrs. Barnes.
I've got a nice surprise for 'ee here in my cart.  Now then, little maid,
you've come to the end of your journey--and I've got a brave way to go."

Mona was still so sleepy that she had to be almost lifted out of the cart.

"What! Why! Mona!"  Then, as Mona stumbled up the path she almost fell
into her grandmother's arms.  "What's the meaning of it?  What are they
thinking about to send 'ee back at this time of night!  In another few
minutes I'd have been gone to bed.  I don't call it considerate at all."

"They don't know," stammered Mona.  "I wasn't sent, I came.  Oh, granny,
don't ask about it now--let me get indoors and sit down.  I'm so tired I
can't stand.  I'll tell you all about it tomorrow."

But tired though she was, she turned back and thanked her rescuer.
"I'd have been sleeping under a hedge to-night, if it hadn't been for
you," she said gratefully.

"Oh, what I did isn't anything," he said amiably.  "'Tisn't worth speaking
about.  I don't doubt but what you'd do as much for me, if I wanted it.
Good night, Mrs. Barnes.  Take care of yourself, ma'am, it's a bit fresh
to-night.  Good night, little maid.  Gee-up, Nettle, my son."

What he had done was a mere nothing, as he said.  But what he did do
before the night was over was a very big something.  Between two and three
hours later he was in Seacombe, and knocking at Peter Carne's door.

"I knew you'd be anxious, so I thought I'd just step along and let 'ee
know that your little maid's all right," he said quietly, making no
mention of the seven long miles he had tramped after he had fed and
stabled his horse for the night.

"Anxious!"  Lucy lay half fainting in her chair.  Peter's face was white
and drawn with the anguish of the last few hours.  Neither of them could
doubt any longer that Mona had been swept off the rock and out to sea.
Nothing else could have kept her, they thought.  Patty and Philippa had
told where they had last seen her, but it was four o'clock before they had
come out of school and heard that she was missing.  So the crowds
clustering about the shore had never any hope of finding her alive.

Peter Carne almost fainted, too, with the relief the stranger's words
brought him.  The best he had dared to hope for when the knock came was
the news that Mona's body had been washed in.  The revulsion of feeling
from despair to joy sent him reeling helpless into a chair.

Humphrey Dodds put out his arms and supported him gently.  "I didn't know,
I ought to have thought, and told 'ee more careful like."

"Where is she?" gasped Lucy.

"Safe with her grandmother--and there I'd let her bide for a bit, if I was
you," he added, with a twinkle in his eye.  "It'll do her good."

They tried to thank him, but words failed them both.  They pressed him to
stay the night, he must be so tired, and it was so late, but he refused.
A walk was nothing to him, and he had to be at work by five the next
morning.  "But I wouldn't say 'no' to a bit of supper," he said, knowing
quite well that they would all be better for some food.

Then, while Lucy got the meal ready, Peter went down to tell his good
news, and send the weary searchers to their homes.

Over their supper Mr. Dodds told them of Mona's pitiful little confession.
"It doesn't seem hardly fair to tell again what she told me, but I thought
it might help you to understand how she came to be so foolish.  It don't
seem so bad when you know how it all came about."

When he had had his supper and a pipe, he started on his homeward way,
with but the faintest chance of meeting anyone at that hour who could give
him a lift over some of the long miles.

Little dreaming of the trouble she was causing, Mona, clad in one of her
grandmother's huge, plain night-gowns, and rolled up in blankets, slept on
the old sofa in the kitchen, as dreamlessly and placidly as though she
hadn't a care on her mind.

Overhead, Grannie Barnes moaned and groaned, and tossed and heaved on her
bed, but Mona slept on unconcerned and happy.  Even the creaking of the
stairs when granny came down in the morning did not rouse her.  The first
thing that she was conscious of was a hand shaking her by the shoulders,
and a voice saying rather sharply, "Come, wake up.  Don't you know that
it's eight o'clock, and no fire lit, nor nothing!  I thought I might have
lain on a bit this morning, and you'd have brought me a cup of tea,
knowing how bad I've been, and very far from well yet.  You said you did
it for your stepmother.  It's a good thing I didn't wait any longer!"

Mona sat up and stretched, and rubbed her eyes.  "Could this be granny
talking?  Granny, who had never expected anything of her!"

No one feels in the best of tempers when roused out of a beautiful sleep,
and to be greeted by a scolding when least of all expecting it, does not
make one feel more amiable.

"I was fast asleep," she mumbled, yawning.  "I couldn't know the time if I
was asleep.  You should have called me."  She dropped back on her pillow
wearily.  "Oh, I'm so tired and I am aching all over.  I don't believe
I'll ever wake up any more, granny.  Why--why must I get up?"

"To do some work for once.  I thought you might want some breakfast."

This was so unlike the indulgent granny she had known before she went
away, that Mona could not help opening her eyes wide in surprise.
Then she sat up, and, as granny did not relent, she put her feet over the
edge of the sofa and began to think about dressing.

"What frock can I put on, granny?"  It suddenly struck her that it would
not be very pleasant to be living in one place while all her belongings
were in another.

"The one you took off, I s'pose."

"But I can't.  It isn't fit to wear till it has been washed and ironed.
It wants mending, too.  I tore it dreadfully."

"Um!  And who do you think is going to do all that?"

Mona stared again at her granny with perplexed and anxious eyes.
There used to be no question as to who would do all those things for her.
"I don't know," she faltered.

"Well, I can't.  I haven't hardly got the strength to stand and wash my
own few things, and I'm much too bad to be starching and ironing frocks
every few days.  Better your stepmother had got you a good stuff one than
such a thing as that.  If she had, it wouldn't have been spoilt by your
falling on the seaweed.  Nonsense, I call it!"  Granny drew back the
curtains sharply, as though to give vent to her feelings.  The perplexity
in Mona's mind increased.  She was troubled, too, by the marked change in
her grandmother.  In the bright morning light which now poured in, she
noticed for the first time a great difference in her appearance as well as
in her manner.  She was much thinner than she used to be, and very pale.
Her face had a drawn look, and her eyes seemed sunken.  She seemed,
somehow, to have shrunken in every way.  Her expression used to be smiling
and kindly.  It was now peevish and irritable.

For the first time Mona realised that her grandmother had been very ill,
and not merely complaining.

"I'll light the fire, granny, in a minute--I mean, I would if I knew what
to put on."

"There's one of your very old frocks upstairs, hanging behind the door in
your own room.  It's shabby, and it's small for you, I expect, but you'll
have to make it do, if you haven't got any other."

"It'll do for the time, till my pink one is fit to wear again."

"Yes--but who's going to make it fit?  That's what I'd like to know.
Can you do it yourself?  I s'pose you'd have to if you was with your
stepmother."

"No, I can't do it.  Do you think Mrs. Lane would?  I'd do something for
her----"

Her grandmother turned to her with a look so full of anger that Mona's
words died on her lips.  For the moment she had forgotten all about the
quarrel.

"Mrs. Lane!  Mrs. Lane!  After the things she said about you--you'd ask
her to do you a favour?  Well, Mona Carne, I'm ashamed of you!  Don't you
know that I've never spoken to her nor her husband since that day she said
you'd pulled down the faggots that threw me down, and then had left her
cats to bear the blame of it.  I've never got over that fall, and I've
never got over her saying that of you, and, ill though I've been,
I've never demeaned myself by asking her to come in to see me.
I don't know what you can be thinking of.  I'm thankful I've got more
self-respect."

Mona's face was crimson, and her eyes were full of shame.  Oh, how
bitterly she repented now that she had not had the courage to speak out
that day and say honestly, "Granny, Mrs. Lane was right, I did pull over
the faggots and forgot them.  It was my fault that you tripped and fell--
but I never meant that the blame should fall on anyone else."

She longed to say it now, but her tongue failed her.  What had been such a
little thing to start with had now grown quite serious.

When her father had wanted her to come home, he had consoled himself for
taking her from granny by the thought that she had neighbours and friends
about her for company, but now it seemed that she would rather die alone
than ask their help, or even let them know that she was ill.

Mona turned despondently away, and slowly mounted the stairs.  "If you do
ever so little a thing wrong, it grows and grows until it's a big thing!
Here's granny all alone, 'cause of me, and mother all alone, 'cause of me,
and worrying herself finely by now, I expect, and--and I shouldn't wonder
if it makes her ill again," Mona's eyes filled at the thought, "and--and I
never meant to be a bad girl.  I--I seem to be one before I know it--it is
hard lines."

She unhung her old frock from behind the door, and in the chest of drawers
she found an old apron, "I shall begin to wonder soon if I've ever been
away," she thought to herself, as she looked at herself in the tiny
mirror.

"Puss, puss, puss," called a voice.  "Come along, dears.  Your breakfast
is ready."

Mona stepped to the window and peeped out.  Mrs. Lane was standing with a
saucer of bread and milk in each hand.  At the sound of her voice her two
cats came racing up the garden, chattering as they went, and she gave them
their meal out there in the sunshine.  As she turned to go back to the
house she glanced up at Granny Barnes', and at the window where Mona
stood.  Perhaps she had been attracted by the feeling that someone was
looking at her, or she may have heard something of Mona's arrival the
night before.

For a second a look of surprise crossed her face, and a half-smile--then
as quickly as it came it vanished, and a look of cold disapproval took its
place.

Mona felt snubbed and hurt.  It was dreadful to have sunk so low in
anyone's opinion.  It was worse when it was in Mrs. Lane's, for they used
to be such good friends, and Mrs. Lane was always so kind to her, and so
patient, and, oh, how Mona had loved to go into her house to play with her
kittens, or to listen to her stories, and look at the wonderful things
Captain Lane had brought home with him from some of his voyages.

Captain Lane, who had been a sailor in the Merchant Service, had been to
all parts of the world, and had brought home something from most.

Mona coloured hotly with the pain of the snub, and the reproof it
conveyed.

"I can't bear it," she thought.  "I can't bear it--I'll have to tell."

She went down to the kitchen in a very troubled state of mind.
Life seemed very sad and difficult just now.

Granny was sitting by the fire, a few sticks in her hand.  "It's taken me
all this time to get these," she said pathetically, "and now I can't stoop
any more.  What time we shall get any breakfast I don't know, I'm sure,
and I'm sinking for the want of something."

"I'll get you a cup of tea soon.  I won't be any time."  It cheered her a
little to have something to do, and she clutched at anything that helped
her not to think.  She lighted the fire, swept the hearth up, and laid the
cloth.  Then she went out to sweep the doorstep.  It was lovely outside in
the sweet sunshine.  Mona felt she could have been so happy if only----
While she was lingering over her task, Mrs. Lane came out to sweep her
step and the tiled path, but this time she kept her head steadily turned
away.

"I'll go right in and tell granny now this minute," thought Mona, her lip
quivering with pain.  "Then, perhaps, we'll all be friends again.
I can't bear to live here like this."

But when she turned into the kitchen the kettle was boiling, and her
grandmother was measuring the tea into the pot.  "Get the loaf and the
butter, child, I feel I can eat a bit of bread and butter this morning."

Mona got them, and the milk, and some more coal to make up the fire, and
all the time she was saying over and over to herself different beginnings
of her confession.  She was so deeply absorbed in her thoughts that she
did not notice the large slice of bread and butter that her grandmother
had put on her plate.

"Don't you want it?" Granny asked sharply.  "Why, how red you are, child!
What have you been doing to make your colour like that.  You haven't
broken anything, have you?"

Her tone and her sharpness jarred on Mona cruelly, and put all her new
resolutions to flight.  "No, I haven't," she said, sullenly.
"There wasn't anything to break but the broom, and you saw me put that
right away."

Granny looked at her for a moment in silence.  "Your manners haven't
improved since you went home," she said severely.  "If I'd spoken to my
grandmother like that, I'd have been sent to bed."

A new difficulty opened before Mona's troubled mind.  If she was rude, or
idle, or disagreeable, the blame for it would fall upon Lucy, and that
would be an injustice she could not bear.  Now that she had lost her she
realised how good Lucy had been to her, and how much she loved her.
For her sake, she would do all she could to control her temper and her
tongue.

She had coloured again--with indignation this time--hot words had sprung
to her lips in defence of Lucy, but she closed them determinedly, and
choked the words back again.  She felt that she could say nothing; she
felt, too, that Lucy would not wish her to say anything.  She could not
explain so as to make her granny understand that it was not Lucy's fault
that she was rude and ill-tempered.  It was by acts, not words, that she
could serve Lucy best.  And for her sake she _would_ try.  She would try
her very hardest to control her temper and her tongue.  The determination
brought some comfort to her poor troubled heart.  At any rate, she would
be doing something that Lucy would be glad about.

Her confession, though, remained unspoken.



CHAPTER VIII.


Mona did try to be good, she tried hard, but she was very, very unhappy.
She missed her home, she missed Lucy, and her father, and her freedom.
She longed, too, with an intolerable longing, for the sight and the sound
of the sea.  She had never, till now that she had lost them, realised how
dearly she loved the quaint little steep and rambling village, with the
sea at its foot, and the hills behind it.  She was always homesick.

Perhaps if she had been sent to Hillside, and it had been her plain duty
to live there, and nowhere else, she might have felt more happy and
settled.  Or, if granny had been the same indulgent, sympathetic granny as
of old, but she had placed herself where she was by her own foolish,
unkind act, which she now bitterly repented; and she was there with a
cloud resting on her character and motives.  She had shown herself
ungrateful and unkind; she had played a coward's part, and had bitterly
pained her father and Lucy.

They did not reproach her--she would have felt better had they done so--
but she knew.  And, after all, granny did not want her, or so it seemed!

Mona did not realise that her grandmother was really seriously unwell,
and that her irritability she could not help.  Mrs. Barnes did not know it
herself.  Mona only realised that she was almost always cross,
that nothing pleased her, that she never ran and fetched and carried,
as she used to do, while Mona sat by the fire and read.  It was granny who
sat by the fire now.  She did not read, though.  She said her eyes pained
her, and her head ached too much.  She did not sew, either.  She just sat
idly by the fire and moped and dozed, or roused herself to grumble at
something or other.

The day after she came to Hillside, Mona had written to her mother.
She told her where she was, and why, and tried to say that she was sorry,
but no reply had come, and this troubled her greatly.

"Were they too angry with her to have anything more to say to her?
Was Lucy ill?"

Every day she went to meet the postman, her heart throbbing with eager
anxiety, and day after day she went back disappointed.  If it had not been
for very shame, she would have run away again and gone home, and have
asked to be forgiven, but she could not make up her mind to do that.
Probably they would not want her at home again, after all the trouble and
expense she had been to them.  Perhaps her father might even send her back
to Hillside again.  The shame of that would be unbearable!

She was uncomfortable, too, as well as unhappy.  She wanted her clothes,
her brush and comb, her books, and all her other belongings.  She had,
after a fashion, settled into her old room again, but it seemed bare and
unhomelike after her pretty one at Cliff Cottage.

Then one day, after long waiting and longing, and hope and disappointment,
her father came.  For a moment her heart had leaped with the glad wild
hope that he had come to take her back with him.  Then the sight of the
box and parcel he carried had dashed it down again.  He had brought her
all her possessions.

"Well, Mona," he said quietly, as she stood facing him, shy and
embarrassed.  "So you prefer Hillside to Seacombe!  Well, it's always best
to be where you're happiest, if you feel free to make your choice.
For my own part, I couldn't live away from the sea, but tastes differ."

"But--mine--don't differ," stammered Mona.  "I am not happier."  She was
so overcome she could hardly speak above a whisper, and her father had
already turned to Mrs. Barnes.

"Well, mother," he cried, and poor Mona could not help noticing how much
more kindly his voice sounded when he spoke to granny.  "How are you?
You don't look first rate.  Don't 'ee feel up to the mark?"  He spoke
lightly, but his eyes, as they studied the old woman's face, were full of
surprise and concern.  Granny shook her head.  "No, I ain't well,"
she said, dully.  "I'm very, very far from well.  I don't know what's the
matter.  P'raps 'tis the weather."

"The weather's grand.  It's bootiful enough to set everybody dancing,"
said her son-in-law cheerfully, but still eyeing her with that same look
of concern.

"P'raps 'tis old age, then.  I'm getting on, of course.  It's only what I
ought to expect; but I seem to feel old all of a sudden; everything's a
burden to me.  I can't do my work as I used, and I can't walk, and I can't
get used to doing nothing I'm ashamed for you to see the place as it is,
Peter if I'd known you was coming I'd have made an effort----"

"That's just why I didn't tell 'ee, mother.  I came unexpected on purpose,
'cause I didn't want 'ee to be scrubbing the place from the chimney pots
down to the rain-water barrel.  I know what you are, you see."

Poor old Granny Barnes smiled, but Mona felt hurt.  She did her best to
keep the house clean and tidy, and she thought it was looking as nice as
nice could be.  "What I was, you mean," said granny.  "I don't seem to
have the strength to scrub anything now-a-days."

"Oh, well, there's no need for 'ee to.  You've got Mona to do that kind of
thing for 'ee."

Mona's heart sank even lower.  "Then he really had no thought of having
her home again!"

"I've brought your clothes, Mona," he said, turning again to her.
"Lucy was troubled that they hadn't been sent before.  She thought you
must be wanting them."

"Thank you," said Mona, dully, and could think of nothing more to say,
though she knew her father waited for an answer.

"I've brought 'ee some fish, mother," picking up the basket.  "It come in
last night.  I thought you might fancy a bit, and Lucy sent a bit of
bacon, her own curing, and a jelly, or something of that sort."
Granny's face brightened.  Though she had not approved of Mona's being
given a stepmother, she appreciated Lucy's kindness, and when they
presently sat down to dinner and she had some of the jelly, she
appreciated it still more.  Her appetite had needed coaxing, but there had
been nothing to coax it with.  "It tempts anyone to eat," she remarked,
graciously.  "When one is out of sorts, one fancies something out of the
common."

"Lucy'll be rare and pleased to think you could take a bit," said Peter,
delighted for Lucy's sake.

"Yes, thank you.  She's made it very nice.  A trifle sour, perhaps, but I
like things rather sharpish."

"Mother," said Peter suddenly, "I wish you'd come to Seacombe to live.
It'd be nice to have you near."  His eyes had been constantly wandering to
his mother-in-law's face, and always with the same anxious look.
The change in her since last he had seen her troubled him greatly.
Her round cheeks had fallen in, her old rosiness had given place to a grey
pallor.  She stooped very much and looked shrunken too.

"Oh, granny, do!" cried Mona, eagerly.  It was almost the first time she
had spoken, but the mere suggestion filled her with overwhelming joy and
relief.

"Then I could look in pretty often to see how you was, and bring you in a
bit of fresh fish as often as you would care to have it.  Lucy would take
a delight, too, in making 'ee that sort of thing," nodding towards the
jelly, "or anything else you fancied.  We'd be at hand, too, to help 'ee
if you wasn't very well."

Granny Barnes was touched, and when she looked up there were tears in her
eyes.  The prospect was tempting.  She had felt very forlorn and old, and
helpless lately.  She had often felt too that she would like:

    "A little petting
        At life's setting."

"It's good of you to think of it, Peter," she said, hesitatingly.
Then, fearing that he might have spoken on the impulse of the moment,
and that she was showing herself too anxious for his help and Lucy's,
she drew herself up.  "But--well, this is _home_, and I don't fancy I
could settle down in a strange place, and amongst strangers, at my time of
life."

"You'd be with those that are all you've got belonging to you in this
world," said Peter.  But granny's mood had changed.  She would not listen
to any more coaxing, and her son-in-law, seeming to understand her,
changed the subject.

Poor Mona, who did not understand so well, felt only vexed and impatient
with the poor perverse old woman, for not falling in at once with a plan
so delightful to herself.  Mona learned to understand as time went on,
but she was too young yet.

"But, granny, it would be ever so much nicer than this dull old place,
and--and you'd have mother as well as me to look after you.  I like
Seacombe ever so much better than Hillside.  Why won't you go, granny?"

Peter Carne groaned.  Mona, by her tactlessness, was setting her
grandmother dead against such a plan, and undoing all the good he had
done.  Granny Barnes would never be driven into taking a step, but she
would see things in her own time and in her own way, if she felt that no
one was trying to force her.  He held up his hand for silence.

"Your grandmother knows best what'll suit her.  It isn't what you like,
it's what's best for her that we've all got to think about."

But granny's anger had been roused.  "It may be a dull old place, but it's
home," she said sharply.  "You can't understand what that means.
You don't seem to have any particular feeling or you wouldn't be so ready
to leave first one and then the other, without even a heartache.  I wonder
sometimes, Mona, if you've got any heart.  Perhaps it's best that you
shouldn't have; you're saved a lot of pain."  Granny began to whimper a
little, to her son-in-law's great distress.  "Anyway, you were ready
enough to run to the 'dull old place' when you were in trouble," she added, reproachfully, and Mona had no answer.

She got up from the table, and, collecting the dishes together, carried
them to the scullery.  "Oh, dear!" she sighed, irritably, "I seem to be
always hurting somebody--and somebody's always hurting me.  I'd better go
about with my mouth fastened up--even then I s'pose I'd be always doing
something wrong.  People are easily offended, it's something dreadful."

She felt very much aggrieved.  So much aggrieved that she gave only sullen
words and looks, and never once enquired for Lucy, or sent her a message,
or even hinted at being sorry for what she had done.

"She didn't send any message to me," she muttered to herself, excusingly.
"She never sent her love, or--or anything, so why should I send a message
to her?"  She worked herself up into such a fine state of righteous anger
that she almost persuaded herself that her behaviour had been all that it
should be, and that she was the most misunderstood and ill-treated person
in the whole wide world.

In spite, though, of her being so perfect, she felt miserably unhappy,
as she lay awake in the darkness, and thought over the day's happenings.
She saw again her father's look of distress as she snapped at her
grandmother, and answered him so sulkily.  She pictured him, too, walking
away down the road towards home, without even a smile from her, and only a
curt, sullen, good-bye!  Oh, how she wished now that she had run after him
and kissed him, and begged him to forgive her.

A big sob broke from her as she pictured him tramping those long lonely
miles, his kind face so grave and pained, his heart so full of
disappointment in her.

"Oh how hateful he will think me--and I am, I am, and I can't tell him I
don't really mean to be," and then her tears burst forth, and she cried,
and cried until all the bitterness and selfishness were washed from her
heart, and only gentler feelings were left.

As she lay tired out, thinking over the past, and the future, a curious,
long cry broke the stillness of the night.

"The owl," she said to herself.  "I do wish he'd go away from here.
He always frightens me with his miserable noise."  She snuggled more
closely into her pillow, and drew the bedclothes up over her ear.
"I'll try to go to sleep, then I shan't hear him."

But, in spite of her efforts, the cry reached her again and again.
"It can't be the owl," she said at last, sitting up in bed, the better to
listen.  "It sounds more like a person!  Who can it be?"

Again the cry came, "Mo--na!  Mo--o--na!"

"Why, it's somebody calling me.  It must be granny!  Oh, dear!
Whatever can be the matter, to make her call like that."

Shaking all over with fear, she scrambled out of bed, and groped her way
to the door.  As she opened it the cry reached her again.

"Mo--na!"  This time there could be no doubt about it.  It came from her
grandmother's room.

"I'm coming!" she called loudly.  "All right, granny, I'm coming."
She ran across the landing, guided by the lights shining through the
chinks in her grandmother's door.

"What's the matter?--are you feeling bad, granny?  Do you want something?"

"Yes, I'm feeling very bad.  I'm ill, I'm very ill--oh, dear, oh dear,
what shall I do?  Oh, I've no one to come and do anything for me.
Oh, dear, oh what can I do?"  Granny's groans were dreadful.  Mona felt
frightened and helpless.  She had not the least idea what to do or say.
What did grown-ups do at times like this? she wondered.  She did not know
where, or how, her grandmother suffered, and if she had she would not have
known how to act.

"Do you want me to fetch the doctor?  I'll go and put on my clothes.
I won't be more than a minute or two, then I'll come back again----"

"No--no, I can't be left alone all the time, I might die--here, alone;
oh dear, oh dear, what a plight to be left in!  Not a living creature to
come to me--but a child!  Oh, how bad I do feel!"

"But I must do something, or call somebody," cried Mona desperately.
She had never seen serious illness before, and she was frightened.
Poor old Mrs. Barnes had always been a bad patient, and difficult to
manage, even when her ailments were only trifling; now that she really
felt ill, she had lost all control.

"Granny," said Mona, growing desperate.  "I must get someone to come and
help us, you must have the doctor, and I can't leave you alone, I am going
to ask Mrs. Lane to come, I can't help it--I can't do anything else.
I'll slip on my shoes and stockings, I won't be more than a minute."

Granny Barnes stopped moaning, and raised herself on her elbow.
"You'll do no such thing," she gasped.

"But granny, I must--you must have help, and you must have somebody to go
for the doctor, and--and, oh, granny, I'm afraid to be here alone,
I don't know what to do, and you're looking so bad."

"Am I?" nervously.  "Well--if I've got to die alone and helpless, I will,
but I won't ask Mrs. Lane to come to me.  Do you think I'd--ask a favour
of her, after all her unneighbourliness--not speaking to me for weeks and
weeks----"

Mona burst into tears, confession had to come.  "Granny," she said,
dropping on her knees beside the bed.  "I--I've got to tell you
something--Mrs. Lane was right----"

"What!" Granny's face grew whiter, but she said no more.  If she had done
so, if she had but spoken kindly and helped her ever so little, it would
have made things much easier for poor Mona.

"I--I--it was me that pulled the faggots down that night, and not Mrs.
Lane's cats, and she won't look, or speak to me because I didn't tell,
and I let her cats bear the blame.  I--I didn't mean to do any harm, I was
in such a hurry to light up the fire, and the old things all rolled down,
and I forgot to go out and pick them up again.  I didn't think you'd be
going out there that night, but you went out, and--and fell over them.
If you hadn't gone out it would have been all right, I'd have seen them in
the morning and have picked them up."

But Granny Barnes was not prepared to listen to excuses, she was very,
very angry.  "And fine and foolish you've made me look all this time,
Mona Carne, and risked my life too.  For bad as I was a little while back,
I wouldn't bring myself to ask Mrs. Lane to come to me, nor Cap'en Lane to
go and fetch the doctor, and--and if I'd died, well, you know who would
have been to blame!"

Granny's cheeks were crimson now, and she was panting with exhaustion.
"Now what you've got to do is--to go in--and tell her the truth yourself."

"I'm going," said Mona, the tears streaming down her face.  But as she
hurried to the door, the sight of her, looking so childlike and forlorn in
her nightgown, with her tumbled hair and tear-stained face, touched her
grandmother's heart, and softened her anger.

"Mona," she cried, "come back--never mind about it now, child----"
But Mona was already in her own room tugging on her shoes and stockings.
Granny heard her come out and make her way stumbling down the stairs;
she tried to call again, but reaction had set in, and she lay panting,
exhausted, unable to do anything but listen.  She heard Mona pulling back
the heavy wooden bolt of the front door, then she heard her footsteps
hurrying through the garden, growing more distant, then nearer as she went
up Mrs. Lane's path.  Then came the noise of her knocking at Mrs. Lane's
door, first gently, then louder, and louder still--and then the exhausted,
over-excited old woman fainted, and knew no more.

Mona, standing in the dark at Mrs. Lane's door, was trembling all over.
Even her voice trembled.  When Mrs. Lane at last opened her window and
called out "Who's there?" it shook so, she could not make herself heard
until she had spoken three times.

"It's me--Mona Carne.  Oh, Mrs. Lane, I'm so frightened!  Granny's very
ill, please will you--come in?--I--I don't know what to do for her."

"Mona Carne!  Oh!" Mona heard the surprise in Mrs. Lane's voice,
and feared she was going to refuse her.  Then "Wait a minute," she said,
"I'll come down."

Mona's tears stopped, but she still trembled.  Help was coming to granny--
but she still had her confession to make, and it seemed such an awful
ordeal to face.  All the time she stood waiting there under the stars,
with the scent of the flowers about her, she was wondering desperately how
she could begin, what she could say, and how excuse herself.

She was still absorbed, and still had not come to any decision, when the
door behind her opened, and a voice said kindly, "Come inside, Mona, and
tell me what is the matter," and Mona stepped from the starlit night into
the warm, dimly lighted kitchen, and found herself face to face with her
old kind friend.

"Now, tell me all about it," said Mrs. Lane again catching sight of Mona's
frightened, disfigured face.  "Why, how you are trembling, child, have you
had a shock?  Were you in bed?"

Mona nodded.  "Yes, I'd been in bed a good while when I heard a cry,
such a funny kind of cry!  At first I thought it must be the owl, but when
I heard it again and again I thought it must be granny, and I got up and
went to her.  And, oh, I was frightened, she was lying all crumpled up in
the bed, and she was groaning something dreadful.  She was very ill, she
said, and she must have the doctor--but she wouldn't let me go to fetch
him, 'cause she was afraid to be left alone.  I was frightened to be there
by myself, and I didn't know what to do for her and I said I'd run in and
ask you to come--but she said she'd rather die--she said I mustn't
because--because--oh you know," gasped Mona, breathless after her
outpouring of words, "and--and then--I--told her--about--about that--that
'twas me pulled down the faggots, and you were right, and she looked--oh
she looked dreadful, she was so angry!  And then I came in to tell you;
and, oh Mrs. Lane, I am so sorry I behaved so, I--I never meant to,
I never meant Tom and Daisy to have the blame.  And, please Mrs. Lane,
will you forgive me, and speak to me again?  I've been so--so mis'rubble,
and I didn't know how to set things right again."  But here Mona's voice
failed her altogether, and, worn out with the day's events, and the
night's alarm, and all the agitation and trouble both had brought,
she broke down completely.  Mrs. Lane was quite distressed by the violence
of her sobs.

"There, there, don't cry so, child, and don't worry any more," she said
gently, putting her arm affectionately round Mona's shaking shoulders,
"It's all over now! and we are all going to be as happy and friendly again
as ever we used to be.  Mona, dear, I am so glad, so thankful that you
have spoken.  It hurt me to think that I had been deceived in you,
but I know now that you were my own little Mona all the time.  There,
dear, don't cry any more; we must think about poor granny.  Come along,
we will see what we can do to help her."

They stepped out into the starlit night, hand in hand, and though her
grandmother's illness filled Mona with anxiety, she felt as though a heavy
care had been lifted from her heart, a meanness from her soul; and, as she
hurried through the scented gardens, she lifted up her face to the starry
sky, and her heart to the God who looked down on her through Heaven's
eyes.

In the house, when they reached it, all was as she had left it, except
that now a deep, deep silence reigned; a silence that, somehow, struck a
chill to both hearts.

"How quiet it is!  She was making such a noise before," Mona whispered,
hesitating nervously at the foot of the stairs.

"I expect she has fallen asleep, I'll go up first and see; you light the
lamp in the kitchen, and bring me up a glass of cold water.  Or would you
rather come with me?"

"I--I will come with you."  She could not rid herself of the feeling that
her granny was dead--had died angry with her, at the last.  She felt sure
of it, too, when she saw her lying so still and white on her pillow.

Mrs. Lane placed her hand over the tired, faintly-beating heart.
"She is only faint," she said assuringly, a note of intense relief in her
voice.  "She is coming round.  Run and fetch me some water, dear,
and open that window as you pass."

So granny, when she presently opened her eyes and looked about her,
found Mona on one side of her and her old friend on the other; and both
were looking at her with tender anxious eyes, and faces full of gladness
at her recovery.

The old feud was as dead as though it had never existed.

"It's like going to sleep in a world of worries and waking up in a new
one."  The poor old soul sighed contentedly, as she lay with the stars
looking in on her, and the scent of the flowers wafting up to her through
the open window.  "It was too bad, though, to be calling you up in the
night--out of your bed.  I'm very much obliged to you, Mrs. Lane,
I--I'm very glad to see you."

"Not as glad as I am to come, I reckon," her neighbour smiled back at her,
"we are all going to start afresh again from to-day, ain't we?  So it's as
well to begin the day early, and make it as long as we can!"



CHAPTER IX.


Granny was much better, and was downstairs again, but she was weak and
very helpless still.  She was sad too, and depressed.  The last few weeks
had shaken her confidence in herself, her spirit was strong enough still,
but more than once lately her body had failed her.  When, in her old way,
she had said that she would do this, or that, or the other thing, she had
found out after all, that she could not.  Her body had absolutely refused
to obey her.

"I ain't dependent on other folks yet!" she had said sharply, and had
afterwards found out that she was, and the discovery alarmed her.
It saddened her, and broke her spirit.

"I ought to be in a home.  I'd rather be in one, or--or be dead, than be a
burden on other folks," she moaned.

Granny was very hard to live with in those days.  Even a grown-up would
have found it difficult to know what to say in answer to her complainings.

"Granny, don't talk like that!" Mona would plead, and she would work
harder than ever that there might be nothing for granny to do, or to find
fault with.  But however hard she worked, and however nice she kept
things, she always found that there were still some things left undone,
and that those were the very things that, in granny's opinion, mattered
most.

As for reading, or play-time, Mona never found any for either now, and oh,
how often and how longingly her thoughts turned to the Quay, and to the
rocks, and the games that were going on there evening after evening!
Sometimes it almost seemed that she could hear the laughter and the calls,
the voice of the sea, the rattle of the oars in the rowlocks, the cries of
the gulls, and then she would feel as though she could not bear to be away
from them all another moment.  That she must race back to them then and
there; never, never to leave them any more!

The loneliness, and the hard work, and the confinement to the house told
on her.  She became thin, the colour died out of her cheeks, and the
gladness from her eyes, and all the life and joyousness seemed to go out
of her.  She grew, and grew rapidly, but she stooped so much she did not
look as tall as she really was.

Granny Barnes, looking at her sweeping out the path one day, had her eyes
suddenly opened, and the revelation startled her.  She did not say
anything to Mona, she just watched her carefully, but she did not again
blame her for laziness; and while she watched her, her thoughts travelled
backwards.  A year ago Mona had been noisy, lively, careless, but
cheerful, always full of some new idea.  She had been round and rosy too,
and full of mischief.  Now she was listless, quiet, and apparently
interested in nothing.

"Have you got a headache, Mona?"

"No," said Mona indifferently, "I don't think so."

"Is your back aching?"

"It always is."

"Then why didn't you say so, child?"

"What's the good?  The work has to be done."

"If you're bad you must leave it undone.  You can't go making yourself
ill."

"I ain't ill, and I'd sooner do the work.  There's nothing else to do."

"Can't you read sometimes?  You used to be so fond of reading."

"If I read I forget to do things, and then----"  She was going to say
"there's a row," but she stopped herself just in time.  "I've read all my
books till I know them by heart nearly."  Even while she spoke she was
getting out the ironing cloth, and spreading it on the table.
The irons were already hot on the stove.

Granny Barnes did not say any more, but sat for a long time gazing into
the fire, apparently deep in thought.  Mona looking up presently,
attracted by the silence, was struck by her weary, drooping look, by the
sadness of the tired old eyes.  But she did not say anything.
Presently granny roused herself and looked up.  "Put away your ironing,
child," she said kindly, "and go out and have a game of play.  The air
will do you good."

"I don't want to go out, granny.  There's no one to play with--and I'm
afraid to leave you; what could you do if you were to faint again?"

Granny sighed.  The child was right.  "I--I could knock in to Mrs. Lane,
perhaps," she said, but there was doubt in her voice, and she did not
press Mona any further.

Mona went on with her ironing, and granny went on staring into the fire,
and neither spoke again for some time.  Not until Mona, going over to take
up a fresh hot iron, saw something bright shining on her grandmother's
cheek, then fall on to her hand.

"Are you feeling bad again, granny?" she asked anxiously.  The sight of
the tear touched her, and brought a note of sympathy into her voice, and
the sympathy in her voice in turn touched her granny, and drew both
together.

"No--I don't know that I'm feeling worse than usual, but--but, well I feel
that it'd be a good thing if my time was ended.  I'm only a trouble and a
burden now--no more help for anybody."

"Granny! Granny!  You mustn't say such things!"  Mona dropped her iron
back on the stove again, and threw herself on the floor beside her
grandmother.  "You mustn't talk like that!  You're weak, that's all.
You want to rest for a bit and have some tonics.  Mrs. Lane says so."

"Does she?  I seem to want something," leaning her weary head against
Mona's, "but it's more than tonics--it's a new body that I'm needing,
I reckon.  I daresay it's only foolishness, but sometimes I feel like a
little child, I want to be took care of, and someone to make much of me,
and say like mother used to, 'Now leave everything to me.  I'll see to it
all!'  It seems to me one wants a bit of petting when one comes to the end
of one's life, as much as one does at the beginning--I don't know but what
a little is good for one at any age."

Mona slipped down till she sat on the floor at her granny's feet, her head
resting against granny's knee.  "I think so too," she said wistfully.
Silence fell between them, broken only by the crackling of the fire within
and the buzz of insects, and the calling of the birds, outside in the
garden.

"Mona, how would you like it if we went into Seacombe to live?"

Mona was up in a moment, her face alight with eagerness, but some instinct
stopped her from expressing too much delight.  In the softened feeling
which had crept into her heart, she realised that to her grandmother the
move would mean a great wrench.

"She must love Hillside as much, or _nearly_ as much as I love Seacombe,"
she told herself.  Aloud she said, "I'd like it, but you wouldn't, would
you, granny?"

"I think I would.  I'd like to be nearer your father, and--and you would
be happy there, and perhaps you'd feel stronger.  I'm getting to feel,"
she added after a little pause, "that one can be happy anywhere, if those
about one are happy.  Or, to put it another way, one can't be happy
anywhere if those about one ain't happy."

Mona felt very guilty.  "Granny," she said, but in rather a choky voice,
"I'll be happy here, if you'd rather stay here--I will really.  I do love
Hillside--it's only the sea I miss, and the fun, and--and the excitement
when the boats come in--but I shall forget all about it soon, and I'll be
happy here too, if you'd like to stay."

She did try to put aside her own feelings, and speak cheerfully, and she
succeeded--but, to her surprise, her grandmother did not jump at her
offer.

"No, child, I wouldn't rather stay.  I'd like to go.  I feel I want to be
near my own, and your father and you are all I've got.  I think I'll ask
him if he can find a little house that'll suit us."

"Won't you live with us, granny? You can have my room."

But granny would not hear of that.  "I've always had a home of my own, and
I couldn't live in anybody else's," she said decisively.  "Your
stepmother's too much of an invalid herself too, to be able to look after
another."

"Then you'd want me to live with you?" asked Mona, with a little break in
her voice.  She was disappointed, but she tried not to show it.

"Yes, dearie," her eyes scanning Mona's face wistfully, "wouldn't you like
that?"

Mona hesitated for only a second, then "Yes, granny, I should," she said,
and then as the idea became more familiar, she said more heartily,
"Yes, I'd love to, and oh, granny, if we could only get one of the little
houses down by the Quay it would be lovely!  I'm sure you'd like it----"

"I couldn't live down by the Quay," granny interrupted sharply,
"I wouldn't live there if a house was given me rent free.  It is too
noisy, for one thing, and you feel every breath of wind that blows."

"But you're close, when the boats come in----"

"Aye, and when they don't come in," said granny.  "I ain't so fond of the
sea as you are, and I should never know any rest of mind down close by it.
Every time the wind blew I'd be terrified."

Mona looked vexed.  "It isn't often that there's any place at all to let,"
she said crossly.  "If we don't take what we can get, we shall never go at
all."

But Granny Barnes was not alarmed.  "Don't you trouble yourself about
that.  Your father'll find us something for certain.  He'd got his eye on
a little place when he was here, he wanted me to take it then.  I almost
wish I had, now.  Never mind, I'll write to him to-night or to-morrow.
If I was well I would go in by John Darbie's van and have a look about for
myself."

All this sounded so much like business, that Mona sat up, all her glumness
falling from her.  When Granny Barnes once made up her mind to do a thing,
she did not let the grass grow under her feet.  There was, after all, much
of Mona's nature in her, and when once she had made up her mind to leave
her old home, it almost seemed as though she could not get away quickly
enough.

Perhaps it was that she felt her courage might fail her if she gave
herself much time to think about things.  Perhaps she felt she could not
face the pain and the worry if she gave herself time to worry much.
 Or, it may have been that she really did feel anxious about Mona's health
and her own, and wanted to be settled in Seacombe as soon as possible.

At any rate she so managed that within a fortnight all her belongings were
mounted on to two of Mr. Dodd's waggons and were carried off to the new
home, while she and Mona followed in John Darbie's van, seen off by Mrs.
Lane.  Mrs. Lane was very tearful and sad at parting with them.

"I know it's for the best for both of you--but I feel as if I can't bear
the sight nor the thought of the empty home."  Then she kissed them both,
and stood in the road in the sunshine, waving her hand to them till they
were out of sight.

"Wave your handkerchief to her, Mona; blow another kiss to her, child."
But granny kept her own head turned away, and her eyes fixed on the bit of
white dusty road which lay ahead of them.  Neither could she bear the
sight of the empty house, nor of the neighbour she was leaving.

Mona's eyes were full of tears, but granny's were dry, though her sorrow
was much deeper than Mona's.  John Darbie tactfully kept his tongue quiet,
and his eyes fixed on the scenery.  He understood that his old friend was
suffering, and would want to be left alone for a while.  So, for the first
part of the way, they jogged along in silence, except for the scrunching
of the gravel beneath the wheels, and the steady thud, thud of the old
horse's hoofs, Granny Barnes looking forward with sad stern eyes, and a
heart full of dread; Mona looking back through tears, but with hope in her
heart; the old driver staring thoughtfully before him at the familiar way,
along which he had driven so many, old and young; happy and sad, some
willing, some unwilling, some hopeful, others despondent.  The old man
felt for each and all of them, and helped them on their way, as far as he
might travel it with them, and sent many a kind thought after them, which
they never knew of.

"I suppose," he said at last, speaking his thoughts aloud, "in every
change we can find some happiness.  There's always something we can do for
somebody.  So far as I can see, there's good to be got out of most
things."

Mrs. Barnes' gaze came back from the wide-stretching scene beside her, and
rested enquiringly on the old speaker.  "Do 'ee think so?" she asked
eagerly.  "'Tis dreadful to be filled with doubts about what you're
doing," she added pathetically.

"Don't 'ee doubt, ma'am.  Once you've weighed the matter and looked at it
every way, and have at last made up your mind, don't you let yourself
harbour any doubts.  Act as if you hadn't got any choice, and go straight
ahead."

"But how is anyone to know?  It may be that one took the way 'cause it was
the easiest."

"Very often it's the easiest way 'cause it's the way the Lord has opened
for us," said the old man simply, and with perfect faith.  "Then I count
it we're doubting Him if we go on questioning."

The look of strained anxiety in Granny Barnes' eyes had already given way
to one more peaceful and contented.

"I hadn't thought of that," she said softly, and presently she added, "It
takes a load off one's mind if one looks at it that way."

Mona, who had been listening too, found John Darbie's words repeating
themselves over and over again in her mind.  "There's always something we
can do--there's good to be got out of most things."  They set themselves
to the rhythm of the old horse's slow steps--"There is always something--
there is always something--we can do--we can do, there is always something
we can do."

Throughout that long, slow journey on that sunshiny day they rang in her
head, and her heart chanted them.  And though in the years that followed
she often forgot her good resolutions, and many and many a time did wrong
and foolish things, knowing them to be wrong and foolish, though she let
herself be swayed by her moods, when she should have fought against them,
she never entirely forgot old John Darbie's simple, comforting words, nor
the lesson they had taught her that day, and unconsciously they helped her
on her life's road, just as he himself helped her along her road to her
new home.

There was indeed a great deal that she could do, as she discovered
presently, when the van deposited them and their parcels at the door of
their new home, for the furniture had arrived but a couple of hours
earlier, and though her father and the man had lifted most of the heavier
things into their places, and Lucy had done all that she could to make the
little house look habitable, there was much that Mona, knowing her
grandmother's ways as well as she did, could do better than anyone else.

As soon as the van drew near, Lucy was at the door to greet them, and in
the warmth and pleasure of her welcome, Mona entirely forgot the
circumstances under which they had last parted: and it never once occurred
to her to think how different their meeting might have been had Lucy not
been of the sweet-tempered forgiving nature that she was.

Lucy had forgotten too.  She only remembered how glad she was to have them
there, and what a trying day it must have been for poor old Granny Barnes.
And when, instead of the stern, cold, complaining old woman that she had
expected, she saw a fragile, pale-faced little figure, standing looking
forlorn, weary, and half-frightened on the path outside her new home,
Lucy quite forgot her dread of her, and her whole heart went out in
sympathy.

Putting her arms round her, she kissed her as warmly as though it had been
her own mother, and led her tenderly into the house.

"Don't you trouble about a single thing more, granny, there are plenty of
us to see to everything.  The fire is burning, and your own armchair is
put by it, and all you've got to do is to sit there till you're rested and
tell us others what you'd like done."

Granny Barnes did not speak, but Lucy understood.  She took up the poker
and stirred the coals to a more cheerful blaze.  "It's a fine little stove
to burn," she said cheerfully, "and it is as easy as possible to light."

Granny was interested at once, "Is it?  How beautiful and bright it is.
Did you do that, Lucy?"

Lucy nodded.  "I love polishing up a stove," she said with a smile,
"it repays you so for the trouble you take.  Don't you think so?"

"Yes, I used to spend hours over mine, but I don't seem to have the
strength now.  Mona does very well though.  Where's Peter?  Out fishing?"

"No, he's upstairs putting up your bed.  He has nearly done.  Mona's is up
already.  You've got a sweet little room, Mona.  You'll love it, I know."

Mona ran upstairs at once to inspect.  She was bubbling over with
excitement and happiness.  Her room was, she knew, at the back of the
house, so she went to it straight.  It was in a great muddle, of course,
but the bed was in place, and the chest of drawers.  The walls had been
newly papered, the paper had little bunches of field daisies all over it,
white and red-tipped, each bunch was tied with a blade of green grass.
Mona thought it perfectly exquisite, but it was the window which took her
fancy captive.  It was a lattice window, cut deep in the wall, and before
it was a seat wide enough for Mona to sit in--and beyond the window was
the sea!

"I'll be able to sit there, and read, and sew, and watch the boats going
by," she thought delightedly, "and I'll have little muslin curtains tied
back with ribbons, and a flounce of muslin across the top.  Oh, I shall
love it up here!  I shall never want to go out.  It's nicer even than my
room at father's, and ever so much nicer than the 'Hillside' one!"

A sound of hammering and banging came from the other side of the tiny
landing.

"That must be father, putting up granny's bed," she hurried out, and
across to him.  He had just finished, and was pushing the bed into place.
Two great bundles tied up in sheets filled up most of the rest of the
floor.  One held Granny Barnes' feather-tie, the other her pillow-cases,
sheets and blankets.

"I do hope your grandmother'll be well and comfortable here," he said
anxiously, "and happy.  If it rests with us to make her so, she shall be.
Mona, you'd better make up her bed soon.  Don't leave it for her to do
herself.  She'll most likely be glad to go to bed early to-night, she must
be tired.  There's no moving round the room, either, with those great
bundles there.  I'll lift the feather-tie on to the bed for you."

"All right--in a minute, father."

Granny's bedroom window looked out on the hill.  Further up the hill, on
the opposite side, was Cliff Cottage.  It could be just seen from granny's
new home.  How small and strange it all looked, thought Mona, and how
narrow the hill was, but how homelike and beautiful.

While she gazed out Millie Higgins and Philippa Luxmore appeared, they
were coming down the hill together.  Millie had on a pink dress almost
exactly like Mona's.

"Why--why, she's copied me!" thought Mona indignantly, a wave of hot anger
surging up in her heart.  "She's a regular copy-cat!  She can't think of a
thing for herself, but directly anyone else has it, she must go and copy
them.  I'd be ashamed if I was her.  Now I shan't like my pink frock any
more!"

As though attracted by the gaze on her, Millie looked up at the window,
and straight into Mona's eyes, but instead of feeling any shame, she only
laughed.  She may not have remembered her own frock, or Mona's, she was
probably not laughing at Mona's annoyance, it is very likely that she was
amused at something she and Philippa were talking about, but Mona thought
otherwise, and only glared back at her with angry, contemptuous eyes.
She saw Millie's face change, and saw her whisper in Philippa's ear,
then she heard them both laugh, and her heart was fuller than ever of
hatred, and mortification.  Mortification with herself partly, for
allowing Millie to see that she was vexed.

Oh, how she wished now, that instead of letting Millie see how she had
annoyed her, she had acted as though she did not notice, or did not mind.

"Mona, give me a hand here a minute, will you?"  Her father's voice broke
in on her musings, "that rope is caught round the bedpost."

Mona went over, and released the rope, but returned again to the window.

"If you don't bustle round, little maid, we shall never be done," said her
father.  "I want to get it all as right as I can before I go, or your
grand-mother'll be doing it herself, and making herself ill again.
You can look out of window another day, there'll be plenty of time for
that."

"I'm tired," grumbled Mona sulkily, "I can't be always working."

Her father straightened his back, and looked at her.  His eyes were
reproachful and grieved.  Mona's own eyes fell before them.  Already she
was sorry that she had spoken so.  She did not feel in the least as she
had said she did.  She was put out about Millie, and Millie's frock, that
was all.

"Mona, my girl," he said gravely, "you put me in mind of a weather-cock in
a shifty wind.  Nobody can tell for half an hour together what quarter
it'll be pointing to.  'Tis the shifty wind that does the most mischief
and is hardest to bear with.  When you came in just now, I'd have said you
were pointing straight south, but a few minutes later you've veered right
round to the north-east.  What's the meaning of it, child?  What's the
matter with 'ee.  It doesn't give 'ee much pleasure to know you're
spoiling everybody else's, does it?"

Mona gulped down her tears.  "No--o, I--I--it was Millie Higgins' fault.
She's been and got a dress----"  And then she suddenly felt ashamed of
herself, and ashamed to repeat anything so petty, and she gulped again,
and this time she swallowed her bad temper too.  "No--I'm--I'm 'set fair'
now, father!" she added, and, though there was a choke in her voice,
as though her temper was rather hard to swallow, there was a smile in her
eyes, and in a very little while granny's feather-bed was shaken up as
soft and smooth as ever granny herself could have made it, and the bed was
made up.  And then by degrees everything in the room was got into place
just as its mistress liked it, so that when granny came up later on and
saw her new room, she exclaimed aloud in pleased surprise:

"Why, it looks like home already," she cried, "and that's our Mona's
doing, I know!"



CHAPTER X.


Mona sat reading, curled upon the window seat in her bedroom.  She spent a
great deal of her time there.  Sometimes sewing, but more often either
reading, or looking out at the view.  For a few days she had been busy
making curtains for her window, and a frill to go across the top, and,
as granny had firmly refused to buy wide pink ribbon to fasten back the
curtains, Mona had hemmed long strips of some of the print left over from
her own pink dress.

But all this was done now, and Mona was very proud of her handiwork.
The frill was a little deeper on one side than the other, but that was a
trifle.  Mona thought that the whole effect was very smart; so smart,
indeed, that she sometimes wished that her window was in the front of the
house, so that people going up and down the hill might see it.
"But I s'pose one can't have everything," she concluded, with a sigh.

Granny's window, which did look out on the hill, was anything but smart,
for she had had neither time nor strength to make her curtains, and Mona
had not offered to make them for her.

Granny had gone up to Lucy's that very afternoon, and taken them with her,
hoping to work at them a little while she talked.  She often went up to
sit with Lucy.  Perhaps she found it dull at home, with Mona always shut
up in her own room.  Lucy's garden delighted her too.  She had none
herself that could compare with it.  In the front there was a tiny patch
close under her window, and there was a long strip at the back, but only a
very few things had the courage to grow there, for the wind caught it, and
the salt sea-spray came up over it, and blighted every speck of green that
had the courage to put its head out.  Lucy's garden and Lucy's kitchen
both delighted her.  She said the kitchen was more cheerful than hers,
but it was really Lucy's presence that made it so.  Lucy was always so
pleased to see her, so ready to listen to her stories, or to tell her own,
if granny was too tired to talk.  She always listened to her advice, too,
which was quite a new experience to Mrs. Barnes.

This afternoon, while granny was talking, and taking a stitch
occasionally, Lucy picked up the other curtain and made it.  It was not a
very big matter; all the windows in Seacombe houses were small.  Then she
put on the kettle, and while it was boiling she took the other curtain
from granny's frail hand and worked away at that too.  The weather was
hot, and the door stood wide open, letting in the mingled scents of the
many sweet flowers which filled every foot of the garden.  A sweet-brier
bush stood near the window, great clumps of stocks, mignonette and
verbenas lined the path to the gate.

"I didn't mean to stay to tea," said granny, realizing at last that Lucy
was preparing some for her.  "I was going to get home in time."

"Mona won't have got it, will she?"

"Oh, no, she won't think about it, I expect.  She has got a book, and when
she's reading she's lost to everything.  I never knew a child so fond of
reading."

"You spoil her, granny!  You let her have her own way too much."

Then they both laughed, for each accused the other of 'spoiling' Mona.

"I don't like her to work too hard," said granny.  "She'd got to look very
thin and delicate.  I think she's looking better, though, don't you?"

"Yes, ever so much," Lucy reassured her, and granny's face brightened.

Mona, meanwhile, went on reading, lost, as granny said, to everything but
her book.  She did not even look out to sea.  She heard no sound either in
the house or out.  Heart and mind she was with the people of the story.
She was living their life.

The baker came and knocked two or three times; then, opening the door,
put a loaf on the table, and went away.  Then presently came more
knocking, and more, but none of it reached Mona's brain.  She was flying
with the heroine, and enjoying hairbreadth escapes, while running away
from her wicked guardian, when her bedroom door was flung open, and Millie
Higgins--not the wicked guardian--appeared on the threshold.

Mona gave a little cry of alarm, then immediately grew angry with herself
for having let Millie see that she had startled her.

"What are you doing up here?" she demanded, bluntly.  "Who told you to
come up? Granny isn't in, is she?"

Millie laughed.  "If your grandmother had been in I should have been at
the other end of the street by this time.  I've no fancy for facing
dragons in their caves."

"Don't be rude," retorted Mona, colouring with anger.  Millie always
laughed at Mrs. Barnes, because she was old-fashioned in her dress and
ways.  "How did you get in, and why did you come?  If granny didn't send
you up, you'd no right to come.  It's like your cheek, Millie Higgins, to
go forcing your way into other people's houses!"

"It's like your carelessness to shut yourself up with a story-book and
leave your front door open.  I ain't the first that has been in!
Wouldn't your grandmother be pleased if she knew how trustworthy her dear,
good little Mona was."

Mona looked frightened, and Millie noticed it.  "What do you mean,
Millie?"

Millie had seen the baker come, knock, open the door, and leave again
after depositing a loaf on the table.  She had also seen Mrs. Barnes
comfortably settled in Lucy Carne's kitchen, and she determined to have
some fun.  She loved teasing and annoying everyone she could.

"Come down and see what they've done.  At any rate, you might be civil to
anyone who comes in to warn you before any more harm is done."

Mona, still looking alarmed, slipped from the window-seat and followed
Millie down the stairs.

While she stood at the foot of them, glancing about her anxiously, Millie
stepped over and shut the house door.

"Where?--What?--I don't see anything wrong," said Mona.  Millie burst into
mocking laughter.  "I don't suppose you do!  Silly-billy, cock-a-dilly,
how's your mother, little Mona! Why, how stupid you are! Anyone can get a
rise out of you! I only wanted to frighten you and get you downstairs.
You're going to ask me to tea now, and give me a nice one, too, aren't
you?"

Mona was trembling with mortification and anger.  "No, I am not," she
said, "and if you don't go out of here in a minute I'll--I'll----"

"Oh, no--you won't, dear.  You couldn't if you wanted to--but you don't
really want to, I know.  Now poke up the fire and get me some tea.
I hope you have something nice to eat."

Mona stood by the dressers, her thoughts flying wildly through her brain.
What could she do?  Millie was taller, older, and stronger than herself,
so she could not seize her, and put her out by force.  Mona knew, too,
that she would not listen to pleading or to coaxing.

"Oh, if only someone would come!"  She made a move towards the door, but
Millie was too quick for her, and got between her and it.

"Millie, you've got to go away.  You'll get me into an awful row if you
are found here, and--and I can't think how you can push yourself in where
you ain't wanted."

"Oh, fie!  Little girls shouldn't be rude--it shows they haven't been
properly brought up."

Mona did not answer.  She was trying to think what she could do.  If she
went out of the house would Millie follow?

Millie picked up a newspaper, and pretended to read it, but over the top
of it she was watching Mona all the time.  She loved teasing, and she
thought she had power to make younger girls do just as she wished.
But Mona stood leaning against the dressers, showing no sign of giving in.

Millie grew impatient.  "Wake up, can't you!" she cried, and, picking up a
cushion from an armchair beside her, she threw it across the room at Mona.
"I want my tea!"

The cushion flew past Mona without touching her, but it fell full crash
against the china on the dressers behind her.  Mona screamed, and tried to
catch what she could of the falling things.  Cups, plate, jugs came
rolling down on the top of those below.  What could one pair of small
hands do to save them!

The set, a tea-set, and her grandmother's most treasured possession, had
been kept for a hundred years without a chip or a crack.  It had been her
grandmother's and her great-grandmother's before that.

Mona, white to the lips, and trembling, stood like an image of despair.
Her hands were cut, but she did not notice that.  Millie was pale, too,
and really frightened, though she tried to brazen it out.  "Now there'll
be a fine old row, and you will be in it, Mona Carne.  It was all your
fault, you know."

But Mona felt no fear for herself yet.  She could think of nothing but her
grandmother's grief when she learned of the calamity which had befallen
her.  Somebody had to break the news to her, too, and that somebody would
have to be herself.  Mona leaned her elbows on the dressers amongst the
broken china and, burying her face in her hands, burst into a torrent of
tears.

Millie spoke to her once or twice, but Mona could not reply.  "Well, if
she won't open her lips, I might as well go," thought Millie, and,
creeping out of the front door, she hurried away down the hill, only too
delighted to have got away so easily.

Mona heard her go, but made no effort to stop her.  She felt too utterly
miserable even to reproach her.

Presently other footsteps came to the door, followed by a gentle knocking.
Mona, in consternation, straightened herself and wiped her eyes.
"Who can it be?  I can't go to the door like this!"  Her face was crimson,
and her eyes were nearly closed, they were so swelled.

The knock was repeated.  "Mona, may I come in?"  It was Patty Row's voice.
Mona was fond of Patty, and she had begun to long for sympathy and advice.

"Cub id," she called out as well as she could.  "Cub id, Paddy."
Patty opened the door.  "What a dreadful cold you've got," she said,
sympathetically.  "I've just seen your grandmother, and she asked me to
tell you she's having tea with Lucy."  Mona turned and faced her.

"Why!--Why! Mona!  Oh, my!  Whatever is the matter?"

Mona's tears began again, nearly preventing her explanation.
"Millie Higgins came in, and--and got teasing me, and--and----"

"I've just seen her hurrying home," cried Patty.  "I thought she came out
from here.  What has she done, Mona?  She's always bullying somebody."

"She--she threw the cushion at me, 'cause--'cause I didn't get her some
tea, and--oh, Patty, what shall I do?--just look at what she has done.
That tea-set was more than a hundred years old, and--and granny thinks the
world of it--and I've got to tell her."  Mona's voice rose to a pitiful
wail.  "Oh, my.  I wish--I wish I was dead.  I wish----"

"That'd only be another great trouble for her to bear," said wise little
Patty, soberly.  "Millie ought to tell her, of course.  It's her doing.
P'raps that is where she has gone."

Mona shook her head.  She had no hope of Millie's doing that.

"Well," said Patty, in her determined little way, "if she doesn't it
shan't be for want of being told that she ought to."

"She'll never do it," said Mona, hopelessly.  "I'll have to bear the
blame.  I can't sneak on Millie, and--and so granny'll always think I did
it."

Patty pursed up her pretty lips.  "Will she?" she thought to herself.
"She won't if I can help it," but she did not say so aloud.  "Let's sort
it out, and see how much really is broken," she said, lifting off the
fatal cushion.  "P'raps it isn't as bad as it looks."

Mona shook her head despondently.  "It sounded as if every bit was
smashed.  There's one cup in half, and a plate with a piece out--no, those
jugs were common ones, they don't matter so much," as Patty picked up a
couple, one with its handle off, the other all in pieces.  "Here's a cup
without any handle--oh, poor granny, it'll break her heart, and--and
she'll never forgive me.  I don't see how she can.  Oh, Patty!
Did anybody in all the world ever have such a trouble before?"

"I shouldn't be surprised," said Patty.  "There, that's the lot, Mona.
It's bad enough, but not so bad as it seemed at first.  There's two cups,
a plate, and a saucer of the set broken.  Two jugs, a basin, and a plate
of the common things."

She put the broken bits of t

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